Friday, May 21, 2010

Passions Ignite [Adult Content]

Passionate kisses
Making me wet
Bare nipples
At your attention
They stand erect
Kissing
Caressing
Hastily undressing
Take me
Right here
Right now
On this spot
Give me everything
Everything you’ve got

Heads tilting
Hips grinding
Legs stretched to the max
Muscle biting
Spine tingling
Each wave of pain
Busting through my desire
Fulfilling my need
A little pain with pleasure

No more hiding
No more being coy
This is what
We both waited for
Shut up
Sit back
And now close your eyes
Take a load off
Enjoy the ride

Sinful nothings
Whispered in my ear
Echoing I answered
Baby, I’m almost there
Climbing higher and higher
Intensely I grind
Tic-tock
Tic-tock
Tic-tock
And rewind


You looked at me
As devilishly I smiled
You moaned my name
As on your face I climbed
I inhaled deeply
And closed my eyes
As the warmth of your tongue
Setting off fireworks
Almost drove me blind

Flipping me over
I knew you were near
Legs quivering
Exhausted from the ride
As rapidly into them
Your body still collides
More thrusting
More moaning
My name, I did hear
Reading my thoughts
As my submission
Became all too clear
I need to be punished
Severely in everyway
Every movement
Every touch
Into your mercy I played
In every sense
Every notion
The rules were obeyed

Tension heightened
As we both came tumbling down
Ecstasy has found us
Filling our need
Covering me with warmth
Rewarding our efforts
With a big A+
Gasping to catch a breath of air
Your hand catches my head
As your lips find mine
Depleted without movement
Satisfaction written on our face
Bodies still entwined
As we held each other smiling
Collapsed in a tender embrace

Wishing "Just Enough" for You


 
Too often we all wish for more than we need or even more than we deserve
so for today, i'm wishing just ENOUGH for you

"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain
so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish enough "Hello's" to get you through the final "Goodbye."

After a While

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.
And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child
and you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn
that even the sunshine burns if you get too much
and instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers
you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn...

Beautifully Stated

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person
that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once
and it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how
it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast,
and you'll eventually lose someone you love.
So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've
never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

~anonymous~

Yearning Inside [Adult Content]

SWINGING ONE LEG OVER EFFORTLESSLY,
CRADDLING NIPPLES BRUSHING EACH OTHER,
NEEDING TO GET EVEN CLOSER ON YOUR SOFTNESS.
A COOL BREEZE CIRCLES,
ENDLESSLY WHISPERING SEDUCTIVELY (MAKE LOVE TO ME)
ECHOING, YOU ANSWERED WITH ONE ARM YOU HOLD STEADY,
THE OTHER MAKES CIRCLES INSIDE,
HEADS TILT FROM ONE SIDE TO THE OTHER.
GASPING UNTIL OUR EYES CRY RELIEF
A PART OF ME JUST DIED IN YOUR AURA
DISSOLVING OUR LUST,
RELINQUISHING THE FIRE.

Secret Admirer

From the moment I saw your face
I wondered what it would be like to feel your embrace
But I am held back by what society might say
And even you, what would you do
if you knew I secretly thought of you that way
Possible rejection haunts me
But one thing keeps me alive
Because you're always there when I close my eyes
Your aura a reflection of what I know is inside
So I continue to stare and hope for a chance
To someday take you in my arms
Lay you down in my bed and show you
the love a face like that deserves
You are my angel, my sunlight, the rain at night
That sinful dream, my inner desire
You are my secret.

Born Free

I stood at the edge of a pit,
glance down and counted my blessings
I raised my eyes to the sky and thank god I was born free
Praying for those before me who struggled
So today I can be free
Free to be me
No shackles that bind, No limits to my mind
I was born free
I shook my head at the past
Lift my voice & hand to the heavens
And celebrated this is not the last
Because I was born free
Free to be me
Celebrating my ancestors
Who fought and died ungracefully
To make a place for me in this world
Yes, I was born free
Completely free to be me
No longer will I sit where no one else will
Or be jail because there is no freewill
My value no more determined by
the color of the ground we walk on
Just the mere thought sends my body in a chill
Again I'll reach my hands to the sky
For I am black as can be
But still I was born free
Free to be me

20 Truths to Live By

OK, so they're not the only twenty "truths" to live by, but they're at least worth thinking about…


1. Faith is the ability to not panic.

2. If you worry, you didn't pray. If you pray, don't worry.

3. As a child of God, prayer is kind of like calling home every day.

4. Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be bent out of shape.

5. When we get tangled up in our problems, be still. God wants us to be still so He can untangle the knot.

6. Do the math. Count your blessings.

7. God wants spiritual fruit, not religious nuts.

8. Dear God: I have a problem. It's me.

9. Silence is often misinterpreted, but never misquoted.

10. Laugh every day, it's like inner jogging.

11. The most important things in your home are the people.

12. Growing old is inevitable, growing up is optional.

13. There is no key to happiness. The door is always open.

14. A grudge is a heavy thing to carry.

15. He who dies with the most toys is still dead.

16. We do not remember days, but moments. Life moves too fast, so enjoy your precious moments.

17. Nothing is real to you until you experience it, otherwise it's just hearsay.

18. It's all right to sit on your pity pot every now and again. Just be sure to flush when you are done.

19. Surviving and living your life successfully requires courage. The goals and dreams you're seeking require courage and risk-taking. Learn from the turtle -- it only makes progress when it sticks out its neck.

20. Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are.

My Love

I cant begin to tell you
All the things I love you for
I only know I love you everyday more and more
If there is one face I want to see my whole life through
One smile that makes a difference in everything I do
The simple touch of your hands that seems to make everything right
The gentle way you look at me when we kiss goodnight
I only wish everything could last forever
There's one joy, one love from which I never want to part
~I just want to be with you
Your that special someone in my world
My life, my heart

Me, my worst enemy

when everything seems to come crashing down around you,
even through tears you’ll see everything clearly..
constantly being dissapointed by people who once gave me hope.
Of being attracted to the unique and different.
Of trying to save everyone, when im in need of saving.
Of forcing myself to feel, because love is what I long for most.
Of craving the experience.
Of going completely insane on the inside.
Of going out of my way over and over again, even when i expect nothing in return.
Of forgiving too easily.
Of being my own worst enemy.

JUST A GURL

If you only knew, I am that gurl, I pretend not to be
I put on a smile for everyone to see
To shield my insecurities so the world cant hurt me .
The tough gurl
The rough gurl
Your gurl
The one who loves you endlessly
Same one with the split personality
The one who once fell from grace
Who looks for the sunlight upon your face
The tall Jamaican beauty
Who sometimes act alittle kooky
Who twirls her hair when no ones looking
Is delighted at the though of cooking
Wanting to be held like everyone else
Who cries on her pillow at night
Always telling others thing will turn out right
Would give anything; if your pain it would ease
Always praying for patience on bended knees
Loving without expectations
A hopeless romantic
Always thinking its better to have love and lost
Than not to have loved at all
A lust for you and life itself
But still skin deep, I'll hide myself
So you see
I am that gurl I pretend not to be
If you knew me at all
Wouldn't you agree?

Desire

When your around I always feel better
I crave your attention
Why you ? is beyond comprehension
With you days aren't so empty
Gentle sparks, flying here and there
Mesmerized I cant keep my eyes off you
kisses even sweeter, with the slightest touch
You cant begin to imagine, how it means so much
You're my Aphrodite
All the things I can't have
There is no doubt where I belong
For you it might not be love
But to me you're everything that I've dreamt of

Don't Grow up too fast

Hello! my mommy said no
She'd yell when she hastily answers the phone
Already two
Countless less things that you can do
Alittle feisty, tempered and rough
Your daddy is so proud,
Moms little princess is acting tough
Nothing said that you wont argue
Nothing done that you cant repeat
Watching your run around is always a treat
Growing up so fast, the memories I treasure
Watching you learn things before your time
Is a moms dream beyond any measure.

Upside to Anger

Anger and resentment can stop you in your tracks
It needs nothing to burn but the air that it swallow and smothers
Its real though, the fury, even when it isnt, it can change you ,
Turn you, mold you and shape you into someone your not
The only upside to anger then is the person you become
Hopefully someone that wakes up one day and realizes
they are not afraid of its journey
Someone that knows the truth is at best a partially told story,
that anger like growth comes in spurts and fits and in its wake
lies a new chance at acceptance and the promise of calm

For You.. A Birthday Wish

Another year older
And still your beautiful as can be
This whole time
It was you that completed me
To you I've given my heart
Please handle it tenderly
So much has grown between us
I trust you completely
Loved you discretely
You're my angel, my sunshine
Since I can never have you for my wife
You're officially my Lover for Life
I've loved you then and much more now
Only you can turn my frown upside down
Days go by and you're all I think of
So with all that said
I Just wanted to wish you a ..
A Beautiful Birthday, My Love

Parody to Britney Spears "You want a Piece of me"

My Parody to Britney Spears "You want a Piece of me"

This week is not yet over and it seems like the week from hell so far
everytime I turn around someone else wants a piece of me..
...so be prepared to pull back with repercussions.




YOU WANT A PIECE OF ME!


I'm that Jamaican Queen
Before I was 17
Dont matter if I'm still in the States
Or sipping drinks in the Carib-bean
They still goin talk about me
Like those hoochies from the magazines
You want a piece of me
They want a piece of me

I'm Miss bad in-fluence karma
Another day another dollar
Guess I can't see no harm
In working and being a single momma
And with a kid on my arm
I'm still a damn sexy head turner
You want a piece of me

I'm Mrs. Lifestyle of the free and reckless
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. oh my god, that Lisa shameless!
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. Extra, Extra this just in
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. she's too dark, now she's too thin
They want a piece of me

I'm Mrs. You want a piece of me
Talking and pissing me off
Well get in line with the haters
Cause I'm just flipping you off
Hoping I'll resort to some violence
End up loosing in court
Now are you sure you want a piece of me

I'm Mrs. Not likely to get on the TV
For stripping in the streets
When getting the groceries,
Looking dapper in my Fuck You heels
No wonder there's havoc in your family
I mean, please
You want a piece of me?

I'm Mrs. Lifestyle of the free and reckless
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. oh my god, that Lisa shameless!
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. Extra, Extra this just in
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. she's too dark, now she's too thin
They want a piece of me

I'm that Jamaican Queen
Before I was 17
Don't matter If I'm still in the States
Or sipping drinks in the Carib-bean
They still goin talk about me
Like those hoochies from the magazines
You want a piece of me
They want a piece of me

You want a piece of me?

I'm Mrs. Lifestyle of the free and reckless
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. oh my god, that Lisa shameless!
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. Extra, Extra this just in
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. she's too dark, now she's too thin
They want a piece of me


Me me me me !
Oh yeah
You want a piece of me????

I AM WORTH ALOT

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question "What kind of man are you looking for?" She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking, "Do you really want to know?" Reluctantly, he said, "Yes." She began to expound... "As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can’t do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man...or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, "What can you bring to the table?" The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money. She quickly corrected his thought and stated, "I am not referring to money, I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life. "He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain. She said, "I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don’t need a simple-minded man. I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don’t need to be unequally yoked...believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster. I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don’t need a financial burden. I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded. I am looking for someone who I can respect In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a helpmate for man. I can’t help a man if he can’t help himself. When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, "You are asking a lot. She replied, "I’m worth a lot."

Only thing missing is U

There is a longing so intangible,
lonely all too often
sitting quiet and alone..

Wanting you
Love, cast your glow on my path
Reassured my hesitations
And sparked these feeling of mine
I love to gaze into your eyes
We share a kiss so full of pleasure
Just to let you know what I feel inside
Smiles that lighten the darkest nights
Don't leave my side, please never go
As dusk sets
I smiled brightly after, replete and fulfilled,
Why can't I run from this?
"Oh my love, my darling"
Your touch, gentle as a feather
Souls approaching each other
So many steps apart we are
so close, but yet feels so far

What Lisa Means:

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

http://http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz

Proverbial Truth

One can be unhappy by oneself,
but to be truly tormented, one must love.

Lingering on my Mind

Who knew
Alone I find myself thinking naughty things
A lot that include you
Not sure what it is
But there is something that keeps me lingering
Wondering, wanting, needing you near
Confused by mixed emotions
Things not in my control
I envision my arms around you
Raining kisses that warms my heart
The taste of you fired with spice
With a lil bit of you everything seems so nice

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Better as a Memory



Like shattered glass
Erupting in slow motion
I watched
As everything
Falls slowly in mid-air
So sparkly
Fascinated
Like a child, I stare
Feeling no fear
Feeling no pain
Mesmerized
I reach out trying to touch
Thinking, if only…
I could shift everything around
Put the pieces back together
Just before it hits the ground
The more I moved it
Like a magnet
Pierce by piece
It shifts back into its space
I’m saddened
But I smiled
I know fate has decided
This is how it should be
So shattered or not
I know it’ll be better
Even if it’s just a memory

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Empty Tummies



You hear it on the radio
You see it on the news
You pass them on the street
No roof over their heads
No shoes on their feet
They rummage the garbage
For just a morsel to eat

How can you sit and say
There’s not much you can do
You buy cigarettes
You buy booze
You buy things that
Eventually you’ll never used

Everyone complains times are hard
And everything’s hard to come by
They close their hearts to the outside world
With no trouble turning a blindside
No change to spare
No old clothes to share
Can’t go without food for a day
To put a smile on a face
Or feed someone else, who hasn’t eaten in days

Not as a Nation
But as Humans
We have to do better
How can you sit and eat
Sleep in your bed, wrapped in your comfy sheets
As there are kids hungry
Wandering homeless in the street

Each day so much is taken for granted
And each day, there’s so much more you can do
Change the way you treat the world
So when we’re older,
We can still enjoy the view

Don’t teach the next generation
It’s ok to turn a blind eye
Why?
Because they’re not of your relation
It’s ok to walk on by
Leave them there in their misery
Hungry
Tired
Laying there on the sidewalk
Just about ready to die?

Imagine if it were a neighbor
A lost friend
Or even of your kin
Shouldn’t matter the race
Neither should it matter
The color of their skin

As a fellow human
I’m here to say
This is our Race
If united we stand
Then united we should stay
There are others that need you
And just thinking about it
Won’t make it go away

So stop the cycle
Stop making the excuse
HELP FIGHT THE HUNGER
You’re help we can use
We can’t do it alone….
… WE CAN’T DO IT WITHOUT YOU

© Lisa Goycochea

Friday, May 14, 2010

Golden Lillies - R.I.P

Celina Sanchez-Ruiz
1/16/1932 – 10/7/2001



It’s been a while
Since I last saw your face
So full of character
I smile
As I picture you
Going about your day, so full of grace
I wonder if you watch over us
If you are proud of us
And if most of our actions
It was you who guided us

I started getting dressed
With just coffee on my mind
Then it was a pair of your earrings
My hands did find
For a moment, I just stared
Wasn’t sure what I wanted to do
I would love to wear them
But it’s all I have left of you

I remember that night you came to me
So beautiful,
You smiled so radiantly
My heart pumped so hard;
I started to cry
As regretfully I remember
Not being able to tell you goodbye
You hugged me, and told me you couldn’t stay
And said; "not to worry, everything will be Ok"

At times I come cross your picture
And wish that you were here
But I know God had a reason
A plan, much bigger for you up there
You’re not of my blood
But I loved you as such
You were a burning light in my heart
And today I still miss you
And love you, just as much

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Life of a Shopperholic




Walking the mall is always a pleasure,
In every department I'll find a treasure
Consider it bought if it looks real nice,
Since I tend to forget budget and price
There is definitely no rule,
in this shopping pool
American Express, MasterCard, Visa,
they're like my workmans tools
I'll buy everything I don't need,
Just by habit, not by greed
Everything is bought in two or threes,
Another addiction I'm trying to squeeze
Shop, Shop, Shop where shall I start,
So hard to choose it breaks my heart

Chanel & Coach my two favorite stores
Marc Echo & Kimora are right next door
Ralph Lauren, Donna Karan & Baby Dior
Can't forget my Arianna that's for sure
Isaach Mizrahi not expensive at all,
Since most designs are in the target stores
Phat Farm, Perry Ellis,
Sean & Calvin Kline,
Will sure look fine on that man mine
Those Armani Jeans I bought last week,
Certainly makes my ass look chic
Department store makeup, I just wont try
..Don't use them too much, so I'll walk on by
Cautiously hovering the perfume stand,
Franticly spritzing on my hands
Alothough they have such a great selection
My new scent fix is the
Calvin Kline "Obsession"

Burberry, Celine & Christian Dior
I can smell satisfaction
as I walk through their doors
That Hermes bag, I'd love to have,
But would have to take on a second job
Yves Saint Laurent and Tiffany's jewels,
Now I'll be drowning in the bad credit pool
Fendi and Prada I just can't stand,
But Louie V. and Todds will hold my hand
That Burberry skirt I wanted so much,
Would go perfect with this Cavali clutch
House of Dereon my new obsession,
A $65 t-shirt in the bag without any questions

Today I spend,
tomorrow my pockets will hurt
But right now I'm only thinking about that Tommy Hil. Shirt
Checking out the stores with delight,
At least today I'm not shopping out of spite
Within the hour, my saving I've spent,
To these designers every cent went
Oh! Barnes & Nobles I just can't look,
I can never walk out with out a cookbook

Aching feet, empty pockets,
credit cards shot,
I'll convince myself I didn't spend a lot
Now I'm tired and completely worn out
Just in time to hit the Food Court
I go through receipts and create a tactic
Because there is no way in hell, I can explain
The mess, I just created on my plastics.

I Miss You

How can I possibly miss you this much?
Somehow you settle my heart with just a touch
The sound of your voice
Always makes me smile
This thing inside I’m trying to contain
Is becoming so hard to explain
You always seem so composed
I wonder how you keep your heart under control
The miles in-between, to you, may seem few
But to my heart, it feels like an eternity of missing you

In her shoes




Sassy yet so small
In her pink heels she stands tall
Full of pride
With a keenest eye for fashion
She’s my joy
The beat in my heart
The fairest of them all

Nurses: Our Wingless Angels

They never notice
I watch them go by
Jumping to the occasion
Never asking why
Their hours are long
Their days are tough
Yet they feel
Sometimes caring for their patients
Is not nearly enough

Politely flashing a smile so bright
Working hard
Sometimes with no vacation in sight
No bickering or separation
I’ve never heard them fight
Together they stand as one
Always helping each other, until the task is done

A schedule change here
Another there
Accommodating their patient’s needs & concerns
And doing it with Care
Excellence is their top priority
Devoting love and ministration
Yet never seeking recognition
There’s never a doubt
If they love what they do
Because they beam with pride
And they walk on through

If ever, you’re in need of a bunch so rare
To shine a light in time of despair
A prayer for comfort
Or brush away a tear
A hand to hold
Or a listening ear
Spewing words of encouragement
To get you on your way
Or simply whisper, “don’t worry, it’ll be ok”

Nothing compares to the work they do
Their shoulders are broad
And like Angels, their hearts are true
It doesn’t matter the color they wear
Yellow, red, pink, white or blue
Just consider yourself blessed
To have a Hospice Nurse
Taking care of you

Happy Nurses Week 4/27/10

Dedicated to My Anna




Another year gone by
Still you’ve made me so proud
You are my Rock, My Princess
For you, my feet are firmly on the ground

Packed full of energy
My ball full light
You’re so easy going
I constantly check on you
Especially; when you are too quiet

You’ve blossomed my inner child
Echoing laughter in my soul
So small my dear
Yet you have manage to keep me whole

I try to show you daily
How much you mean to me
For without you near my love
I’m not sure; of the kind of person I’d be

We’ve come along way
From you eating play doh
To now knowing, every song on the radio
I could never try to change you
To me perfectly fine
Already I see a bit of me
On display in you from time to time

I pray each night for the courage
To never let you down
Make you disappointed
Or replace your precious smile with a frown

I watch as you run off to play
And wish in my arms, you’d rather stay
Longing for the days….
Of my hand, you feared letting go
But I’ve shadowed and taught you well
And allowed you much room to grow

From the darnest things you say
To the simplest that amazes you
So eager to help me
Always trying to fill my shoe
I adore your unexpected hugs
And butterfly kisses too
I Love You Now and Always
Arianna Baby;
This one’s dedicated to you.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Im here for you

I'm going to be here for you baby
I'm going to be a woman of my word
Speak the language in a voice that you have never heard
I'm going to love you like noone else can
And make your world better than its ever been

standin still





My life stood still
Its true
Ive been stuck on space for a while
Empty and uninhabited
Then you came along
And lifeted me up
Breathe life my way
Opened the skies to a brighter day

A life lost
Faith diminished
Then here comes
Love renewed

You came to me
When I thought I didn’t need anyone
Showed me life
Renewed my faith
And gave me love again

Happy Birthday




As you blow out those candles tonight,
In my heart I hold you tight.
I so wish I could be there now,
Someway,somehow.

I wish you happiness on this day,
And may nothing but love, be on it's way.
Floating in the wind is a kiss for you,
A kiss filled with love, from me to you.

A decadent treat

A decadent treat
I want to keep
You soothe the carvings
From my wanting lips
To my quivering feet

Your aroma
So intoxicating
Captivatingly I stare
Selfishly I clutch you
I don’t ever want to share

So dark
So smooth
You hit the right spots
You’re everything I need
Heightening every indecent feeling I've got

Steadily I un-wrap you
Trying to make you last
No need to rush
No need to go fast

My buds water for a taste
I savor slowly
So nothing goes to waste
A nibble here and here
My excitement builds as I nibble there

My chocolate dream
You’re so divine
Ill always desire you
You’re always on my mind
When times are good; I’ll find you
When times are bad; I’ll embrace you
On my heart; this promise ill brand
“You’ll always melt in my mouth”
But if all else fails
Ill still tastily lick you from my hand.


HAPPY MOTHERS DAY




Well the day is almost here
The one we get once a year
Cupcakes, greeting cards
Mommy & me trips
Whatever the case
They make us feel special
From our feet to our fingertips

From breakfast in bed
To the cards that are read
Hand-made crowns, made just for our heads
Kisses and Hugs, and “I Love You’s”
So much adoration, it’s all about you
There’s no doubt
This is a special day
They’ll show you love you
In there on own special way

Whether it be..
A woman without child..
Caring for them as if they were her own
A single dad, whole heartedly taking on the role
A stepmom working hard to reach the same goal
Grandparents nurturing grandkids with care
Or a friend helping out,
Since the momma or daddy’s never there

Whatever the case may be
Taking on the Title “Mom” is never easy
Here’s to anyone who’s ever cared for a child
A commendation is necessary
You deserve this high five
Doesn’t matter the circumstances
You’ve gotten yourself into
You are considered “MOM”
So from my heart to yours
This one’s DEDICATED TO YOU

Calling All Angels

I hear your voice
And your face, I picture
The flashback start
As memories of our path floods my mind

Pieces of my heart
Falls like a landslide
As you begin to cry
My heart pounds
As I listen to your every word

Holding back tears
So for you..
I can be strong
My palms sweat
As I begin to pray
Asking God;
Please send a Guardian Angel your way

With each pause of silence
Emotions push through
I tell you, it’ll be Ok
And if you need anything
I’m always here for you

I want to fold you in my arms
For comfort
For reassurance
Or just to let you know
My heart consumes your spirit
And we’re all routing for you to pull through

If I could
Believe me I would
Trade everything I have for your pain
If only;
That would make you All Better Again..

So Hard

Stupid Emotions
They make you cry
Make your heart bleed
Leaving you wanting to die
I’ve tucked it away for so long
he will to survive without it
has grown much too strong
I’ll bend but refuse to break
So my shielded heart doesn’t ache
I feel but I won’t fear
I hurt, but I’ll never shed a tear
Stumbling between fact and fiction
I still refuse to compromise
For fear of loosing myself

Idle Tears

Idle tears
I know not what you mean
It’s been awhile
Since my eyes you’ve seen
I’ve masked you so well
Neither friend, nor foe can ever tell


Idle tears
What does this mean?
This erratic pounding in my chest
Is attacking my emotions
Have me feeling a mess


Idle tears
I see you’ve broken free
And trying hard to get the best of me
Out of desperation, you’re being unfair
Blocking happy thoughts
Sending me a dose of your despair

Idle tears
Don’t make this so hard
You know emotionally
I’m always on Guard
My will is too strong
And we both know
On the outside you don’t belong


Idle tears
You might as well give in
Cause I’m determined today
You’re not going to win
I’ll close my eyes and count to three
That should be enough time
For you to defuse and depart from me

what about the others

Utterly exhausting
the turmoil we face
trying to avoid this selfish world
No choice but to trod on
Hoping for unity
Some preach the pure song
But still fail to follow along
But not everyone can see that hating is wrong

Be courageous
Be strong
words of our fore fathers
That bared it all
A chance for redemption
So in this life we can all stand tall
A task seemingly simple
Yet many loose sight and fall

Stupid girl

Walking along
Carrying her heart in her hands
Unguarded for everyone to see
She shakes from fear
Still she won’t listen to me

Stupid Girl
Please turn around
Back away slowly
Don’t make a sound

Stupid girl
Don’t you know?
The past you carry around
Are like your demons
They’ll keep you guarded
They’ll never let you down

Stupid Girl
Take my advice
Don’t make the same mistake twice
You’re giving your heart away
But what you’re getting back
Is it worth the price?

Stupid Girl
I'm always here
Those nights you cried
I held your tears
And through the darkness
I was there
Whispering comfort in your ear

Stupid Girl
I don’t understand
I’ve done everything to protect
That heart you hold in your hands

Stupid Girl
Please explain
Please tell me these walls we built
Wasn’t built in vain


Stupid Girl
Don’t leave me now
You and I, we made a vow
We’ve come so far
I made you strong
Built you tough
So no one can do you wrong

Stupid Girl
Here my plea
Before it’s too late
I hope you’ll see
There is no one else out there
That’ll love you better than me

Stupid Girl
We’ve come so far
I’ve done all I can to make you stay
Seems you’ve got a plan
Your mind I can’t sway
But if you ever need me
I'm just a guarded wall away

I wanna be II

I wanna be that sparkle in you eye
In a proud sense I wanna say, yes that’s my guy

I wanna be the one that lingers on your mind
In your darkest place, it’s my face you’ll find

I wanna be more than your lover & your friend
I want to be your girl for more than a day past the end


I wanna be the reason for the smile on your face
That gap in your heart, I wanna fill the space

And when you feel everything seems out of place
I wanna be your comfort, through our embrace

And on the days you just need some quiet time
Snuggled quietly beside you is where I wanna climb

And on the days you’re feeling down
I wanna be the one to chase away your frown

And when nothing seems to go your way
I wanna be the one telling you, it’ll be ok

And when you feel you can’t reach no more
I want to be the hand yours reach for

And when you seem to be confuse
I wanna be the voice of reason you choose

And if ever you feel lost or seem despair
You can always look to me
Because I’ll always be standing right here


And in the moments, you feel content
I wanna be the one to share you joy

I wanna be close to you

For everything that you have given me
Ill take an eternity to give it all back to you
And if that’s what it takes to be close
Then an eternity will just have to do


of anyone that I can think of
my heart screams only for you
there is so much about you that caught my eye
that stirs my soul and gives my tummy butterflies


I can only wish you feel the same
Wanting me like I want you
Without the drama and the games
There is so much I want to give you
If only you can assure me, what you feel is true

Lucky to have you

you opened up my heart
and i let you inside.
you held me close
as we both intertwined.
I lean on your shoulder
as you held me tight.
I knew this moment
just felt so right.
your smile lightens up my day
like the stars in the sky.
I'm so lucky to have you
right here by my side.

Why Cant I tell you I love you.















As I look up into the sky,
My mind tumbles through the day.
And I can't help but ask myself why,
You make me feel this way.

Our meeting drifts through my mind.
The memory of you, I can't leave behind.
Thinking about it, and thinking of you.
Is about the only thing that I can do.

How can I forget your smile?
Or the twinkling of your eyes?
You make the regret worthwhile,
I can't ignore the butterflies.

They start to flutter and die,
Every single, damn time,
I gaze up into your gentle face,
And then my heart begins to race.

Yet still I wait and bide my time,
Waiting poised, to commit the crime.
As your lips curve into a smile,
My heart jumps and runs a mile.

The allure of your cheeky grin,
Begs for me to commit the sin.
From you, there is no where to hide.
The agony is more then I can describe.

It's almost as if nothing else matters,
All I hear is my heart as it stops and splatters,
It's like nothing else can make a sound.
Every single time you are around.

But your breathing pounds in my ears,
It's soothing and calming in a way,
Yet my mind goes completely blank.
I just don't know what to say.

I am conscious of all the people,
Watching us the way they do.
Yet a part of me ignores them.
To me there is only you.

And then my time is up,
I know I have to go.
It's hard and devastating.
And I wish it wasn't so.

So back I go to my place,
Where I lay and think about your face.
Only to repeat the day,
Once again with nothing to say.

The silence is the worst,
One day I swear, I will break the curse,
And my feelings will be made clear,
I will be bold, and strong, and free of fear.

I will tell you how much I care,
And I will promise you I will be there,
But until then, I will be in the shadows,
Waiting, praying in these meadows,

And until that day you will not see,
The truth that has enveloped me.
Because you must never know,
That I am the one, that loves you so.

Mixed Emotions

Having a sad day
A mind numbing,
wrecking my brain kinda day
So many thoughts plague my head
For reasons I cant understand
Mixed emotions
Sparks like that of a welders tool
Too much smoke to sort thru
Chatter all around
I try to smile thru my mind numbing frown
Tucked in my own world
Tapping at the keys
Hoping to get some of this jumble out
Love, lost, family and friends
So much I need to let out

Anticipation of you

My entire day
Has been in anticipation
Of you
Of seeing you
Knowing you'll smile at me
Because you always do
your warmth i can rely on
your heart beating so strong
can't wait to throw my arms around you
because thats where i know i belong

Trapped in a heart of glass.

Like that firefly trapped in ajar
I look out on the world
Things reachable
Things so close but untouchable
I see the emotions
The pain the angish
But trapped inside
There is nothing to do but wish
I want to touch you
To hold you
Cradle you tight
And be your guide

Is it you

I'm looking for someone to share my heart with
Is it you
The one who I can run to
Could that be you
Someone who can make me smile
Holds my hands and chase away the pain
Is it you
Tell me it’ll be alright when things don’t look so bright
Is it you
Are you one for me

In Your Presence

In your presence, my heart races
My heart, in your presence, races,
yet stops with a single look
into your eyes.
A Spy in the House of Love
sees through my disguise,
and my soul is an open book.

You fill up all of my senses
with a single touch,
the smell of your hair
the taste of your lips
and your deep blue-eyed stare.
My heart, as such, is racing
as the lines on your palm
my lips are tracing.
Dissolving our mutual defenses.

My heart, in your presence, races,
Yet stops with a single look
Into your eyes.
Endless and warm
as a thousand blue skies.
Then I cover the distance
between our faces
and our lips find
perfect coexistence.

Doubt Shadows Me

The words are a whisper
But they all sound so sweet
Genuine or not
I still melt at your feet

Confused by indecision
I still want you without reason
It’s hard when you’re not around
But thoughts of you
Lifts my spirits from the ground

So many times I want to ask
Am I the pebble in your path?
Or soon to be a thing of your past
I can’t help but wonder, if this is real
For the words that aren’t spoken
Makes me doubt how you feel

Stolen Time

Like a stallion running wild
My heart starts to beat
It gallops to the rhythm
As his kisses makes me weak
Here
There
And there
Exhale and repeat
He holds me closer and my palms start to sweat
As his warm breath crash against the nape of my neck
Exhaling to control my hunger
My want
My need
My will to suppress them, I shall no longer feed
I close my eyes as my tongue trails his lips
Our legs entwined
Energy flows from toes to our finger tips
Tightly we embrace as if tonight was our last
My fears start to fade, shadowing the past
He caresses my body one inch at a time
And I, his, as if it were mine

You Found Me

I'm not sure how to say it
Or a clue as what to do
All I know for sure is that
I keep thinking about you
Your sweet butterfly kisses
Tend to makes me feel hazy
You touch drives me wild
I miss you so much when you are gone
So for comfort I’ll visualize your smile
I'm not sure where this is going
Or where you’d like it to be
I can only hope what you’re looking for
You’ve found some of it in me.

Loving You, Silently

I lay here in your arms
Listening to our heats beat
Absorbing your warmth
In my mind this moment
I lock away forever to keep
As I look at you, my eyes utter the words
My lips dare not speak
You gaze back at me, so intently
And slowly my heart grows weak.

YOU

I can’t help but to think of you
Kissing you
Holding you
Making love to you
I feel like a school girl with a crush
When you leave I miss you so much
I long to see your face & feel your sweet embrace
i hope you don’t think these feelings are wrong
in a such a short time ive come on strong
ive opened my heart, I'm ready to to accept
what you have to offer from the first day we met
there is one explanation, one emotional truth
which makes my heart beats faster when I think of you

His Guidance

Strolling through life,
seeing nothing in between
Just a sideview blur of the black and the whites
No knowing what I want
Or exactly what I want to do
I ask, lord please guide me
Because I’m completely lost without you

My Small Package

The laughter that heals my soul comes but in a small package
Filled with hugs and tons of random kisses
Filled with I love u’s and small feet trying to fill my shoes
Sitting on the counter waiting to bake more cookies
Small hands always eager to help
Questioning authority, the occasional No and the infamous BUT WHY
This laughter which heals my soul, comes in such a small package
Unwrapped each day and tucked away safely with kisses each night.

Thine Angel

With soft blue eyes he pierced my soul
And unseen wings he cradles and hold
Guiding from afar with a watchful eye
Spewing words of encouragement helping me get by
Lying in the midst of my darkness, a hand I did see
Without reserve or expectation, this angel
My angel is here, guiding and strengthening me

dedicated to my friend *MH

A lie in a frame

Big smiles
Always happy moments
Captured by the camera
Just by looking
No one truly knows
What happened before the flash
Tacked on the wall
Or sitting on a surface
The untold tale
A lie in a frame

No sniffles
No tears
No sadness
Or even a hint of fear
Just put on a smile
And for that moment
Everything you are feeling
Fades to that emotion
That runs from ear to ear

No one takes pictures
Of things they want to forget
That’s how it’s done for decades
It hasn’t changed yet
Never questioned why
Only happy moments are taken
A simple smile shadowing a lie
Just another moment, frozen in time

Idealism versus reality
Only things to be remembered
Doesn’t matter how, when or where
They always look the same
Frozen forever perfectly
A lie trapped in that frame

Do unto others

Demanding more
But gave so little
So afraid, not to be heard
But never care to listen
So many words
But when it came my time
Nothing from your lips
Did my eager ears find
Tried to make you see
The angle from where stand
Opening a window to my soul
Begging for you to understand
But through my eyes
Nothing that was meaningful
You ever cared to see
Only the snares and sarcasm at the end
Which was just a little something
You, yourself taught me

BARELY HANGING ON

As I try so desperately to end
Years of shattered memories
That I thought I could mend

I try to be guarded
From what scares me the most
But that all caved in
Every time I got close

Giving up is easy
Its what ive always done best
That’s why this time around
My need, NOT to give in
Each day was put to the test

Equality is the key
Stand by my side
You no lower
Or me, higher
I don’t ask for much
So I never do expect
But your imagination of me
Was unbearably
Way too “Perfect”

I’m not that complicated
As I sometimes seem
My trust is highly guarded
If you want to unlock me
The only thing, you need to remember
Honesty is always the key

So now why is it,
that after the worse has worn us down
We still sit and wonder
If Only….

So instead of becoming
What was
And disappearing with out a trace
If you want me
Here I am
Come and get me

My Truth seems to sometimes cut like a knife
My honesty is sharp
always seem to cut like a knife
And just like everything else

Becoming what was…
Has disappeared from my life

Coffee Lover

Replaying backwards
Trying not to forget
Remembering as far back
As the first day we met
the silly moments
the talks
the treats
the full moon
as we walked on the beach
Treasuring the moments
that started with coffee
and sincerely grew from a kiss

Alone I lay

Last night as I lay
Complacent on my bed
Sole thoughts of you
Possed my head
Finally fell asleep
I think I dreamt a bit
Because suddenly
My darkened room
Is now fully lit
Quickly I looked around
To see if you were there
That’s when I realize
I must be in a dream
For what once was
No longer lays here

Surviving

Struggling between facts and fiction
I'm lost but I'm alive
Everyone around me is trying to make a statement
Then there's me
I'm just trying to survive

Alone I sit and wonder

Alone I sit and wonder
Hoping to understand
How much longer I’ll wait
Closing my eyes
Holding my hands out to fate
Determined not to fail
I try even harder
Determined not to fall
I cautiously move faster
Determined not to give in
I give it my all
Determined not to quit
I stride forward, still holding on
Determined to do my best
Alone, I’ll sit and wonder
Even more determined to overcome

In this darkness

Don’t know why its so hard
Feels like these lines
Just empty letters pushed together
Nothing taken seriously
Or attempt to hear me out
Nothing makes it better
Looking on in sadness
Waiting for this darkness to end

She saves me every time.



Slowly I sink
I keep grasping
But there’s nothing to hold on to
Lost in open water
Overwhelmed by its torment
My mind’s drowning
Lost control under the surface
Looking up, I watch as above me
The waves crash all around

Gasping for a breathe
I lost my clarity
I can’t seem to hear
Panic rings through my head
My eyes keep searching
My arms keep grasping
My legs keep trying
But slowly I sink
Tired
I’m trying not to let go
With bloodshot eyes
I’m fighting to stay alive

Taking another look up
I saw the sunlight
How majestically it shined
With bright rays that hit the water
A lighted tunnel almost like a guide
I picture your face
Your eyes telling me you need me
I see your smile
It wraps & warms me like a blanket
I can almost hear your laughter
I picture you at play
I remember the first day I held you
The promise I made you that day

Determined not to sink
Forcing myself to act
Mustering the strength
Giving it one more shot
Closing my eyes
Arms abreast
I pushed forward
And pushed forward
Finally breaking the surface
Jumping out of a dream
Waking up in a sweat

I looked in on you sleeping
Thinking….
Even in dreams you tend to save me
Smiling, I listened to you breathing
Kissed your forehead
Then your rosy cheeks
Once
Twice
And another
just because

~mom

Dont Waste my Time

Its sad how some people say they want one thing
And when its serve up them
They don’t know what to do with it.
So tired of the imposters, the loosers, the wanna be’s
Don’t waste the moments playing head games
You’re only wasting everyone’s time in the end

Lisa’s RANT

Tired of caring
Tired of being the one
Tired of always being sane
Never the one to complain

Tired of being the shoulder
Sometimes both being cried on
Tired of being lied to
Always asking for truth
But to truth, I’m always so blind to

Tired of you making me crazy
Shattering my thoughts
And making my mind hazy
Tired of feeling detached and lost
Conflicted and confused
Even more so, with something so fragile at cost

Tired of being afraid
Tired of feeling like I failed
Tired of being the rock
As your feelings I spare
Mine gets pushed to the back

Tired of hearing, what everyone wants
Tired of the imposters, the losers, the wanna be’s
If you want truth, speak it
If you want love, give it
If you want honesty, be it
If its just ass you want, say it
Tired of the wasted moments
Caught up in the head games

Tired of making everyone feel secure
So I can fix your problems
My tearful emotions always get left at the door
Tired of the emotional cracks
The scars from the stabs wounds left in my back

Tired of being so selfless
The good girl that seems in control
The ear everyone whispers in
But when my heart breaks
Everyone goes scattering

Tired of being in this maze
And not sure where to run
No sure what else to do
YET, I still ask
What can I !!
DO FOR YOU?

Why is it?
Whenever you need me, I’m always there
Whenever you need a shoulder, I carry a spare
Whenever you need to love, I smother your heart
Whenever you need a friend, I’m there till the end
Even when its crap, all my attention, …. To you I still give
Alive yet each day, feels like in an eternity of torment I live

Just hurts to shuffle
And rearrange my life
Scarping out the cobwebs
Trying to push through the strife
So many friendly faces
Some near, others here from the start
Just sad that no one really see
What’s eating at my heart.

Somewhere in between

Too much going on in my mind
Yet not one steady thought, I can find
Grasping desperately,
I need to know
Why it is, that my past still hurts me so
Energy always burning low
From the nights I stay awake
Battery blinking on empty
Sadness and worry
Throughout the day are plenty
Just by looking at me
No one would know
My nights are restless
My heart shrunken and cold
Today seem longer than usual
Left me tired and feeling alone
My nerves are strung
As anxiety shun my heart the normal beat
From silently pining for the one
Whose love and affection I seek
An eerie stillness in the air
No sounds from her to comfort
Helpless I lay and stare
No music to distract
Just lost in thought
Worn out and detached
In my mind, I search for your smile
Lately its seems like a spec
Frantically I’m trying to find
Too often saying the words
I’m sorry
Even, for the things
I’m not sure I did
Confused,
I bury myself in wonder
And hope by days end
Or before the day is lit
I’ll hear your voice
That sounds so sweet
The sound I long for
The one that makes me
Feel complete

Its the things not said ..

The words that aren’t spoken
Tends to hurt the most
Diminishing the one thing
We’ve been holding so close
Can’t help but wonder; Why me,
In the present, is so hard to be seen
But next time you want to judge
Who and Where I’ve been
Before you point that finger,
Make sure your hands are clean

The Pages

The pages

Interlaced with my life
Seems too much to bear
Overcome by criticism
Can’t seem to keep you near
I lock me away
Thought I lost the keys
But here, I find me
Feeding your curiosity

Laying alone
Envisioning everything crashing down
Feeling overwhelmed, too upset to cry
I close my eyes, …..thinking
It would be so much easier
If only I lied

Nothing good,
Ever comes from looking back
Only forward,
Repairing and replace the things
From the past that you lacked

There is nothing more about it
That I want to say
For there are things that still
Haunts me up to this day
The things I had no hand in weaving
Just a child’s, painful incision
Too much avoidable hurt
If only with better adult supervision

Can’t change
How life’s’ circumstances made me
I try to open up
Yet I am beaten, broken and left bruised always
Drowned by my words
Strangled by my “history”
The things about me
That many declare a mystery

Tired of the convictions
The disappointing tone
Can’t handle, just me
Then it’s best you go
Leave me the option
Of growing….
Or simple …..
Let me be alone .

Unfold Me

Always a barrier
That needs tearing down
I try to be the simple girl
And never wear a frown
My life has changed me
More bad than good
Many tend to see
My outward projection & criticize
My misunderstood imperfection
Hold me
Tell me it’ll be ok
Keep me
Tell me
You want me to stay
Help!
Take my hand
Hear my voice
Help me see
Because in your eyes
I am small
I am needy
I am helpless
Don’t turn away
Unfold and Love me

Circles

Feels like I’ve been here
So many times before
Standing at this same crossroad
Tear soaked cheeks
And a heavier heart
I’ve stared at this path
That has no end
Resentment and anger
Both closely hovering
Deluded by hurt and blame
So much locked in
So much baggage carried in my heart
Don’t mean to hurt
Or tear another story apart
There’s no one to run to
No shoulders to catch my tears
No arms to hold me close
And chase away those fears
Alone I face the world
One sunrise at a time
Burying everything else within
Living today as if there is no other
And even though I hurt
No one knows my pain
Because through it all
I’ll always continue smiling

What is LOVE

Excerp from the Movie: 2001 Captain corelli mandolin
nick cage and Penelope cruz

"Love is temporary madness; it erupts like volcanos, then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because that is what love is. Love is not breathlessness. It is not excitement. It is not the promulgation of eternal passion. That is just being in love, which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both art and a fortunate accident. Those that truly love have roots that grow toward each other underground, and when all the pretty blossoms have fallen from their branches, they find that they are one tree, not two."

Emotional Weakness

I wear my heart under my sleeve
To be seen but not by many
Challenging the future and what it has in store
Getting up with a longing, searching for more
Why do we need to be loved?
Why is it hard to accept, when we find it?
Why isn’t it ever enough?
Where is the love that holds simplicity?
Why do we make it an obsession
To be in Love with Love itself?

I’ve given everything of me so freely
Loving wholly, unwise but still completely
Never wanting anything in return
Knowing I have so much to give
Wanting, yearning, craving more
Those moments that makes you weak
Melts the heart and captures your speech
Embraces that make the world around you disappear
Holding on to that moment
Because with no one else you would rather share
Giving everything you’ve got
That emotion we feel, but never find the right words to say
In your powerless and weakest moment, it’ll confront you
Convince you to let go, trust and blindly jump in
Some are fortunate to find it
Others never knew they wanted it till they lost it
Buried deep inside, this emotional weakness
With the power to rip you apart bit by bit
And yet put you back together with that first kiss

Lost and Found

Today I found something
Truly mysterious and rare
A golden box with a heart
That needed care
Was just another day
Moving about my way
And there it was
Laying there,
Just because
Open and vulnerable
For all the world to see
But no one did,
not a soul but me
How can it be?
Me, Finding a vessel
Designed so beautifully
Perplexed by its design
Astound by its presence
How could one be so blind?
Leaving such a precious gift behind
I took it in my hands and held it near
And promised now and always
To love, cherish and give it endless care


Incomplete ………….

FOR YOU

For you, I will close my eyes and dream
Warm sunshine, for those rainy days
Those rainy days, that turn into memories
And when all seems lost, through my eyes
I’ll hope for you warmth and calmness
from the sunrise on the horizon
that smiles upon your face
and ever so gently softens your heart

Falling

Floating in this a shapeless form
Pulled apart and slowly drawn back together
Feels like im drowning in my thoughts
Don’t seem to get much sleep at night
But I know soon everything will be alright

Waves

As I stood on the edge
Just peering down
A calming rush of feelings
Feelings of being swept up overcame
Watching
Waiting for more
Mesmerized by perilous waves
Crashing against the bough
My thought ran abit wild
Nothing stood still in my mind
Scattered yet in awe
Matters of the heart
Swirling through time
Filled with so much passion
Strong and demanding
Yet giving up without resistance
Ripples backing down
Dying slowing
Drowning in softness
What was once fierce?
Now mollified
Beaten
Only to start all over again
I listen for the calm
Smiling, just watching
Wondering
If you can see it too

Silver Lining

A beautiful day it turned out to be
More beautiful
Than you thought of me
Quaint little getaway
From turmoil, anxiety and stress
Hook and sinker put to the test
Amazing what time can do
Getting closer
Spending a few more hours with you
Warm sunlight hitting my face
Watching you
Lovingly invade my space
The rain was just a blessing
Other than the rainbow
Nothing else was missing
Watching the rain clouds roll away
Leaving yet again, our beautiful day
Nothing to brag about
Since not a thing was caught
But sweet treats for the soul,
We eagerly sought
I couldn’t ask for more
Nor will I try to pretend
Because you are that silver lining
I’m looking for in the end.

Who can I run to

There is so much emotion stirred up inside
I started out with a poem, of feelings I can’t hide
Everything, floating, swirling, moving so fast
Letting go of the reigns and forgetting the past

Since nothing feels good enough to truly express
What I’m feeling deep down, alone in my nest
Seems you are different, or so I may think
Too afraid to find out, so afraid to blink

Kisses that literally sends jolts to my heart
More than five hours is enough to bear apart
Your arms around me seems, so sure
It’s getting harder, letting you out the door

Everything passing by so fast
Always doubting, how long this can last
Many will say she’s quite a catch
But deep down, I’m just “me” looking for you
My so called “perfect match”

But then I read everything you said;
And apprehensive thoughts blur my head
Tormented by insomnia I lay here awake
Hoping all this wasn’t just a mistake

Feels like insecurities are getting in the way
But if there’s doubt, don’t hesitate to say
I’d rather hear truth, than have you dancing around
Trampling my yet so small fragile heart into the ground

I’m not that complicated
IF - in time you will see
Even the simplest things
Just truly amazes me

Trying to show the simplicity of it all
It didn’t take me thirteen days to fall
Not sure what to do, or how to portray
Without me telling a story that could last all day

So when you read this, don’t think too hard
‘cause I’m new to all this, so my heart I’ll guard
Though there is so much, you still don’t see
But then again, you did warn
You are all kinds of “wrong for me”

But in the end, you’ll finally say
That quirky girl so tall
Was truly the rarest of them all.

Eyes Wide Shut

That invisible eye,
I never meant to see
Stimulating my mind
Personality that blinds me

A few smiles here
A little sarcasm there
Heart worn on the sleeve
Showing years of wear

Compassionate yet true
a quality so rare
to none else’s I’ll try to compare
ever so tightly promises to hold
even with flaws and all
said he was sold

Pledged to keep me smiling
So I’ll never bear a frown
Pledge to keep me stable
Keeping my feet on the ground
Too many times kindness taken for granted
Wasn’t looking for love,
just something different,
Is all he ever wanted

Written to me - rebuttal

REBUTTAL POEM
See I tell people I’m alittle confused
Please explain yourself
Crashed and Burned,
sounds like someones being used

Falling Is hard
And all this is new
I feel your warmth
And it scares me
I try to push off abit
Everything happening so fast
Trying hard not to rewind the past

I want to talk to you
But scared of what you might think
Of me in the end

Its hard to really open up
For all the world to see
Because of all the harsh critism
They just might not like me


Its nice to be able to talk
And be listened to
Reminds me of a familiar face
I once new
Nothing to worry about
Just writing what come to my mind

Falling, simply free falling
Everything passing by so fast
I said three weeks
That’s the no pass zone
By then you should know
Everything about me
A lot more, than most really know

WRITTEN TO ME

This really wasnt suppose to
Honestly begin this way
I had this poem in mind
With something more special to say

We ended up meeting together
Finally, a casual day for coffee
I, stupidly smiling at you
You, always laughing at me

It was quite comfortable
Sitting there with you
Talking about whatever
And everything you liked to do

Seemed that we already
Knew so much about one another
Your daughter, your work
No sister, me and one brother

But originally I had written
This poem about that day
Only to re and rewrite it
With so much more to say

I guess Im just not use to
Falling for someone so soon
I know its not been awhile
Cuz I keep singing the same tune

You have so many admirers
The world wants to hold your hand
I really dont know where I fit
What to think, where to stand

The girls, the guys
There so much I dont know
But I think you keep that quiet
Just so I wouldnt turn and go

That last night we shared
Something new around the bend
Me telling you I knew that
You would break "100" in the end

The weather turned out to be
So very nice out by the beach
Do you realize then that
For my hand did you finally reach

But I do have to admit
The brownies werent half bad
You feeding me in bed
Made me smile, just a "tad"

I enjoyed making them for you
As was the smile upon your face
Yet another moment lost
In a memorable, tender embrace

Watching you, hearing you
Finally fall in my arms asleep
I kissed you softly upon your forehead
Dreamed myself for you I could keep

Wishing it were only make believe
One that would give to more sense
"Opposites are suppose to attract..."
Yet, doesnt explain why its so intense

Consider me crashed and burned
For I dont really know what to think
We play unknown roles in life
Attached by some mysterious link

This wasnt my original writting
For Im thinking maybe Im not the one
My feelings are no longer invisible
This poem... is finally done.

by invisible eye

Is there more to this ?

Walking tall with head held high
With an ego so big, it strains the eye
Sweet and Intelligent, sometimes unclear
With a heart so big, seen from the outside in
Wonder what the eye sees in me
Hoping older, wiser
with a few years under the belt
Holding me high
rush of tension our bodies felt
what should I make of this
There is definitely something
Not sure what it is
That keeps me, wondering
If there is more to this …

Only thing missing is you

wishing upon you

Like that of a stolen kiss
My minds’ telling me, “just steal a kiss
Sun kissed hair brushed from your face
As unknowingly you look into space
I secretly gaze and pretend not to stare
But it still hurts the most knowing
You are there
I am here
Missing the touch of your velvet lips
Always coaxing you in to steal that kiss
I closing my eyes, cusping my lips
Feeling the blood rushing through,
Slowly to my finger tip
Sending that jolt to my heart
Miss holding you in my arms

Wishing I could hold you like this
Right here and never part
Holding you close as never before
Jump starting my heart
This close to you,
Hurts when were apart

And with that my heart starts beating again
Walking away
Smiling
As you perfume lingers

Clumsy

Fiery passions building so high
Embracing
Longing to touch the sky
Pulling thorns from my heart
another work in progress from the start
when I think of you, I am far away
imagining tongues flicking
Dancing and entwined
Silent sighs escape me...
Deep gasps become me…
Sitting wishing I could keep you
Promises to stay close
Building something
Only seen by most
The softness of your spirit
Fades my past
I sit and wait for you
In my hands I hold a tattered heart
Embrace me,
Wrap me tightly
Stay awhile and mend me
Love me always
thoughts of you
Always excite my mind
Slowly encasing the core of my heart
I catch myself sinking
Deeper and deeper
Tumbling
Faster and faster
So I’m sending out a message
And hope you’ll see
What shouldn’t have been
Already has me falling each day, clumsily

Combated Heart

Gazing into what seemed like forever
Almost like I’m stuck in a dream
Staring blankly at my computer screen

Waiting for your return
That smile, you bring
Could make any nightingale sing

Batting your lashes
Puckering your lips
A goddess by design
Those seducing Hips

The sweetest name
A passionate heart
Phantom to my desire

Counting the days
Till your voice I can here
Mesmerized by your smile
Forgive me if a stare

Your kind words
Grasping at my fears
Like an echo from the mountains
Slowly they disappear

If fate has its way
Your eyes will meet mine
Lost in forever
We’ll travel past time

Scared and reserved
Leaving everything to chance
If we’re meant to be
We’ll know in our hearts

Cupid DOA

CUPID DOA


Woke up this morning, hungover and bummed
Went to grab the paper, and was seriously stunned

CUPID IS DEAD the headlines read
He was found on the corner, with trauma to the head
Dressed in a diaper, bow and arrow by his side
Found lying on the corner, assuming instantly he died

I looked up from reading, I wanted to hide
‘Cause the neighbors were all gathering around outside

Could they have heard?
Could they know what I’ve done?
One had a pitch fork,
The other kept waving a gun

Quickly I turned to walk away
When I heard, an angry voice say
Did you read the paper yet?
Did you hear the news?

Cupid is dead, and no one has a clue
The only lead they’re going on; is a very large shoe

My mouth still open, I just couldn’t believe
Standing there in my PJ’s, with blood on my sleeve
Nervous and sweating
Not sure what to say
I’m shaking like a leaf
My face showed dismay

Assumptions they jumped to
Expletives they hissed
Watching them get angry and shaking their fist
An old couple walked up, with more breaking news
No suspects’ been arrested, the police all seemed confused
Not knowing where to point the blame,
What they did to the poor fella, is really just a shame

I cant take this no more, I’m beginning to fret
My hearts’ boiling over with so much regret
Lastnight all I wanted was to take a walk
But NO!
Me! This little guy wanted to stalk
So I hurled my shoe straight at his head
Today Dearest Cupid turned up dead.


It wasn’t a dream, I know that now
How I’ll get outta this jam, I don’t know how
Some might agree he deserved what he got
While others may think I deserve to be shot
But until then….
Nothing I did see….
I’ll keep my mouth shut….
And I’ll remain free….
And if they come knocking on my door
I’ll pretend not to know
That cute lil fella in a diaper, couple arrows and a bow

~I Killed Cupid~

I took a walk to clear my mind
Suddenly I heard a sound coming from behind
I turned around and to my surprise
A chubby lil guy in flight, just hovering in plain sight
Bow and arrows, on his back he brings
Scantily clad in a diaper and a pair wings

Rubbing my eyes not sure what I had seen
Maybe it’s the vodka talking, ‘cause it not Halloween
I tried to run, not sure what it was
He saw my fear and explained, what he does

What a relief, I’m not loosing my mind
I just met a cherub who’s been hovering behind
In cherub world this could be a normal walk or talk
But in mine that’s what we realist define as “to stalk”

Bothered by his presence I got the courage to say
Leave me alone and let me be on my way
For I do remember, who you are
Last time you came, your arrow left a scar

Those lingering kisses, those gleaming eyes
Shooting love at ya, forever in disguise
My My, how the tables will turn
Not falling for it this time, another lesson I’ve learned

Following me everywhere, flying round n round
That lil Fs’ trying to shoot me down
Had me trapped on the corner,
And aimed straight for my heart
Oh not again, it was just torn apart

I tried to reason
But he just wouldn’t see
Kept saying something about “here to help me”
He said my heart has mended
And I’m ready as can be
And he’s not leaving until, love sets me free


Whizzing through the air, arrows hitting the wall
Yelling, “You can’t want love and be scared to fall”
Missing me by inches,
Now I’m a quite annoyed
Cupid I’m warning you !
I’m not in the mood
Plus if you hit me with that arrow,
Your lil ego I’ll bruise

He kept coming at me,
I wasn’t sure what else to do
So I took aim at his head and hurled my platform shoe
Over he fell and came spiraling down
Now lifeless he laid, flat on the ground


I kneeled down beside him, not sure what to say
I didn’t want to hurt you, only to scare you away
Cupid I warned you
I tried to make you see
This hearts not ready
For what you have in store for me

I lay his head on my lap, As he tried to speak
But only a whimper came, because he was so weak
I tried comfort but it was too late
Cupid passed away February 13, 2008

To All Friends

Sweet sentiments you always extend
A cheerful thought, you’re willing to send
You always bring a smile to my face
When I get your messages on IM or Myspace

Something Positive for the Monday Blues
Or just Hello to spark my Tuesday Fuse
Sexy or Raunchy to liven Hump days
Or something funny quenching my Thirsty Thursdays
Friday’s messages are best of all,
TGIF comments sending me straight to the bar
Saturdays & Sundays, I don’t hear from you
But I guess it’s Ok; I have much to do too
If I’m not online, you know what to do
Send me an IM request, I’m on Yahoo

Just wanted to let you see,
That I appreciate you adding me
And take the time, to keep me in mind
Stopping by my page from time to time
Sending me love, though I’ve never met you
And me; sending those thoughts right back at you
So to all my Myspace friends
Or even the ones on My Yahoo IM
I’m wishing you sunshine for your raining days
And love and laughter to you and yours now and always

What I want

I want you ..
I want you to want me
I want love
Love me endlessly
I want truth
In turn, i'll never keep it from thee
I want security
Hover and shelter me
I want affection
Smother me endlessly
I want to be happy
Just your smile can brighten my day
I am only half
hold me closer and make me whole
and say you'll always be mine forever to hold.

A Breach in the Wall

I want to cry.
I want to scream.
I need to hide in you...

But you're not there.

Your own life has made demands on you,
taken so much of you from me.
You try to let me know
I'm still thought of...

Somewhere in your chaos.

Once upon a time,
I used to feel you
now I hurt yearning for you

I feel as if walls
are closing in on me.
Yet your love encircles,
entwining, binding...

My soul to you.

Forever seems like
such a long time to wait
This is just a breach
a breach in my wall of patience.

Fall Into My Kiss

Fall into my kiss,
Sink into my lips,
Show no regret,
Please.
Slip into surrender,
Take me into your embrace,
And there will be no going back.
I need to feel the thrill of your touch,
The electricity that rushes through me,
Every time your fingers
Accidentally brush mine.
Let me feel it.
Let me feel you.

Starving Soul

Full of emptiness
Drowned out by silence
Surrounded by no one
Abandoned
Choking on unspoken words, thoughts, feelings
Grasping for the absent hand
Seeking warmth from icy hearts
Alone
Clouds part
Gray turns gold
A friend is found
Soul is soothed
Love starts to blossom

Imprisoned in her mind




Crouched into a ball
Both hands covering her head
Rocking back
Rocking forward
Rocking back
Cant seem to make herself stop
Trying to escape her own self destruction
All around sounds of laughter
Sometimes crazy banters
Screaming, the yelling
Lab coats all sizes and shapes
Dated white cups filled with sweet control
Bright lights
Tight straps
Screaming Make them stop
All that yelling and noone seems to mind
Writing on the wall
Mumbling to herself
You cant hurt me
If I’m already hurt
You cant break me
I’ve never been whole
Wiping her eyes
Still writing on the wall
She silently prayed
Make this place fade away

LOST IN TRANSLATION

Walking in the shadows
Not recognizing the person I see
So sad and alone
Hatred is becoming me
A narrow path of self-destruction
Recklessness covers my eyes
I look up, but only encounter even darker skies
My existence; just a figment of this reality
Slowly morphing my perceptive mentality
Grasping at purity that eludes my soul
Searching and hoping
Struggling to stay whole
Hoping for a spec of light to help guide the way
On this altered path I trod
Ridiculed and beaten by frustration
Painfully lost in translation

Just the way you are

If you were mine to keep
I wouldn’t change a thing

Shopping Binge

Aimlessly wandering the streets
Looking for treasures she could keep
Trying to fill a void
Worldly possessions her lonely heart seeks

My Sunshine

The journey we ventured on has been heaven
I would give you the world
if only it was mine to give
I find myself thinking of you often
You are my sunshine
The rays in my days
Please my doll don’t ever take your love away

We are one

There is always a smile
Whenever you are near
Your voice I hear
I enjoy our walks
Our talks are even better
Because they are sillier than ever

We could talk for days and our conversation never skips a beat
hours and not get tired
there is never a dull moment when ever you’re around
and on your face, I couldn’t stand to see a frown

Separated by life
Joined together by destiny
Sustained by will power and hope …with love
No matter what there is always a smile
Even when there is no conversation for a while
No uneasy quietness
Cant bear to be away for days
You tend to find the sentence i was just about to say
Occupying 2 bodies
Yet we are one

Devour Me [Adult Content]

Gracing the room
Eyes undress me
Accepting the challenge
Drawn closer into thee

Like a moth to a flame
Perilously lingering near
Trapped by lust
Overthrown by loneliness
This is no illusion
Just a night filled with mystery
Breath as soft as the wind
Whispering so close
Tis you I desire
Flowing kisses so sweet
Heart skipping a beat
Bodies entwined
Unleashing the heat
Cascading waves of pleasure
And for a Moment....
Nothing else mattered,
Just an echo of my voice
Over and over and over again
Begging……….
.........."Devour Me"
Unselfishly feeding my greed
Shh!.. No empty promises tonight
Just cradle and hold me tight
For tomorrow,
Thoughts of you will make me smile
As satisfaction lingers on my mind

Time Heals All

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting

Happy Birthday Sunshine

Another year older
And still your beautiful as can be
This whole time
It was you that completed me
To you I’ve given my heart
Please handle it tenderly
So much has grown between us
I trust you completely
Loved you discretely
You're my angel, my sunshine
Since I can never have you for my wife
You’re officially my Lover for Life…lol
I’ve loved you then and much more now
Only you can turn my frown upside down
Days go by and you’re all I think of
So with all that said
I Just wanted to wish you a ……..
A Beautiful Birthday, My Love

Reflection: Jamaica Vacay - I

I saw a hardware store advertising sign
while driving down a complex street in Jamaica

It read:
Things to build you dream home the pictures listed were:

Faucets
Shower head
Pipe
Lighting
Sauna
Windows
Doors

So much is considered a luxury for others.
Makes me wonder about all the things people take for granted
you drive by houses not painted because people cant afford to
Concrete blocks holding down the shingles on the roof to keep out bad weather
Kids running around in the puddles when it rain giggling like its Christmas
No electricity, No running water unless they carry it probably 4-7 miles just to have clean water to drink
No indoor plumbing, some houses without a door
Some without windows, rooms without a solid floor
No worries about dieting because they’ve gained too much weight
Yet they are all happy, fit and content with life,
hoping for the little things that a lot take for granted

But when you see people that actually never had it and can be this happy without it
Just makes you sit back and think how amazing the rest of the world can be
They can take the little that they have, make the best of it and still be happy

Reflection: Jamaica Vacay - II

Sitting here in this dusty chair listening to the rain through the window
Watching my daughter as she sleeps so innocently
I realize I actually miss him, what a bitch c]life can be
Trying not to appreciate all the little things that can make me smile right now
Dropped off so far from where the real civilization begins

Its amazing to see everyone every thing still the same after so many years
Everyone still look the same just by age
Everyone still looks amazing coming from shool in there uniforms almost in a single file they’ll walk to the nearest bus stop, with rags on there head because the sun is beaming hot

The drive here is horrendous
I could never muster up the gut to drive, Jamaican will turn a 2 lane into a four with everyone expecting to go at the same time, everyone yells its like I got dropped off in Road Rage Hell, everyone shaking there fist and yelling even the tourist have apted to the concept, they just blend right in…

I’m so pisst spirit lost my luggage or better yet didn’t put it on the plane
And of course I ended up with the bag that has all my shoes???
hopefully my insurance will reimburse me for some of it.
Tonight I’m planning out dawning my favorite underwear and bra and some fuck me heals and go out
Who needs clothes when your in Jamaica, I’m sure the locals wont mind, besides I’m one of them.

TGIF

Feel the rhythm through my body
The liquor harassing my feet
Lust Lingers in the air
Suitors springing small talk,
Already trying to get near

Tonight I plan on having a blast
Forgetting my insecurities, suppressing what shall be my past
Left my cares at the door
Soon I’ll be making love to the dance floor
Everyone seems to be having a good time
Music’s good
Drinks are flowing
Life is good and everything is as it should

Eyeing the red head, checking me out from afar
Sipping her drink, moving to the beat at the bar
Coyly on me, her watchful eyes linger
Coaxing me to dance, calling me with her fingers
Making all her desires known
Tonight it’s me she wants to take home
Trying to ignore all the signs
Pretending not to read between the lines

Few beers down the hatch, couple colorful shots
My arms are heavy, my legs buckled into knots
Chikz dancing on the bar looking cuter by the minute
Shaking everything limber as fast as the DJ can spin it
My head is pounding out of control
But I’m nowhere ready to go home
Getting picked up at the bar was not at all planned
Since I’m not interested in a one night stand

Stepping out, to get a breath of fresh air
Only to find being alone comes despair
My body’s numb
My mind’s on a break
Not sure how much more of these pick up lines I can take
Back onto the dance floor
Trying to shake the mood
As the sound of laughter echoes through the room
The clock strikes two, its time to go
No! It’s too soon,
The night is still young
Although tonight I was alone and still had fun

Staggering home with satisfaction on my face
Hope I don’t see any of my drunken pics
Plastered on Myspace.
So until we meet again,
Bacardi, Senor Cuervo and My new friend Jack
This night might be over, but I promise you
Next week, I’ll definitely be back.

JUST A GURL

If you only knew, I am that gurl, I pretend not to be
I put on a smile for everyone to see
To shield my insecurities so the world cant hurt me .
The tough gurl
The rough gurl
Your gurl
The one who loves you endlessly
Same one with the split personality
The one who once fell from grace
Who looks for the sunlight upon your face
The tall Jamaican beauty
Who sometimes act alittle kooky
Who twirls her hair when no ones looking
Is delighted at the though of cooking
Wanting to be held like everyone else
Who cries on her pillow at night
Always telling others thing will turn out right
Would give anything; if your pain it would ease
Always praying for patience on bended knees
Loving without expectations
A hopeless romantic
Always thinking its better to have love and lost
Than not to have loved at all
A lust for you and life itself
But still skin deep, I'll hide myself
So you see
I am that gurl I pretend not to be
If you knew me at all
Wouldn't you agree