Thursday, June 24, 2010

Love Shoudn't Hurt

I remember when we met
Fresh feelings so new
You said, don’t worry baby,
I’m goin take of you

We were so in love
Kissy kissy here
Hugging everywhere
You said baby, if I can help it
You’ll never shed a tear

You said my eyes
Were like a mirror to your soul
You’d never leave me
I’ll always have your shoulder
And your hand to hold

I remember when, you said
You can’t bare another day
Of walking this life
Without me as your wife

I remember when
You got so excited
When the doctor said it was a boy
You promised to be a great dad
Because a father figure you never had

I remember all the good times we had
But then something changed
And at times
Things did seem ALL bad
You didn’t come home anymore
You barely said good bye
When you walked out the door
Got women calling our house
All hours of the night
And when I try to talk to you
You always start an argument
Then don’t come home out of spite

It’s painful
But I’m trying to go over
Everything that happened
Last Tuesday night
We had dinner
You insisted on picking a fight
I tried to agree with you
Just to avoid,
Another sleepless night

I remember telling you
We need some outside help
This abuse has gone on too long
And the first step to healing
Is admitting you are wrong

I even kept saying; If not for me
Then do it for our sons’ sake
And if you are not willing to change
Then we need to take a break

For a second…
I swear…
I saw your eyes go blank
And that’s when you snapped
‘Cause round my throat
Your arms were tightly wrapped

And when your Fist connected my face
I thought I was dead for sure
‘Cause everything went dark
As my blood trickled
And my bleeding body hit the floor

As tears roll from my eyes
I remember
Our son
Screaming in the background
I tried getting away
But it was, my stomach
That your size 11 found

I can remember the day
You said you’d treat me
like “I was your Queen”
Well here I lay
Beaten and bruised
The doctor said
I’m lucky to be alive
You’ve even ruptured my spleen

Laying here in this hospital bed
Has given me much time to think
Where we went wrong?
What I did or didn’t do?
To make you so angry
That you’d beat me lifeless
Leaving me black and blue

My heart is broken
And I just want to scream
I keep thinking
Any minute now,
I’ll wake up from this dream

My body is tattered
And my spirit is crushed
My memories are tarnished
The uncertainty of “He loves me”
Or “He loves me not”
Speaks louder
Every time I hear the beep
From the oxygen machine

This is my wake up call
Love Shouldn’t Hurt
No matter how great or small
So through these bandages
I can finally see
I’m not alone
And I’m still alive
Because a higher power
Was always watching over me

© Lisa Goycochea

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National Domestic Violence Hotline 1800-799-7233

Note: Did you know
1 in every 4 women will experience domestic violence in her lifetime.
An estimated 1.3 million women fall victim to physical assault by an intimate partner each year.
85% of domestic violence victims are women.
And Most cases of domestic violence are never reported to the police.
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Tuesday, June 22, 2010

I'm Inspired

I’m inspired
I just want these lyrics to flow from my pen
Ripping from my soul this music within
Love it or hate it, this is how I do
Don’t care for my rhymes?
This is me, and not about you
My mind bubbles like a volcano
Tearing down boundaries like G.I Joe
When shit hits the fan
Some over-eat, others hit bottle
But when I’m unnerved
I grab a pen and go at it full throttle

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Trapped in the Middle

Caught in the midst of this war
Behind the smile the claws hide
On either side I chose not to fight
I’ve waved my flag a long time ago
Made peace with the devil
Leaving God to deal with my foes
This is not my cross to bear
So loosing is not something I fear
I’ve paid my dues and to you nothing I owe
So for the last time
Grow Up and Let It All Go

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Live & Let Live

Too much wanting
And not enough giving
Too much dreaming
and not enough living
Too much anger
And not enough forgiving
If you want your heart to be free
You have to let it go
Just let it be

It’s never a mistake
If you walk away with a lesson
Believe in yourself
You are blessed
So start counting those blessing

When your world seems dark & grey
It’s ok to cry, but remember
The sun has to come someday

Stop following the path
And make your own
You’ll never know if you can
Unless you try to walk alone

Some say experience is key
But its only experience
If beyond that
You’re too blind to see

Stop staring
at the closed door
and look around
for a window
Live your truth
Do the best you can
And when you feel
You can't go anymore
Raise yourself up
And reach alittle more

Stop talking
Start doing
Move the roadblocks from your mind
And you can accomplish anything
Peace comes from within
And if you can feel it
Others around you
Are likely to see it

Live and let Live
© Lisa g

Thursday, June 10, 2010

My Little Graduate

My Daughter
My Heart
My Joy
From VPK
You’ve Graduated Today

As I watch you recite your lines
My heart tremors
As I try not to cry
I’m very proud of you
Today is your day
And I’m beaming with pride

Moving on to kindergarten
Seems like an eternity
But you’ve waited ever so patiently
I know you are excited
About riding the bus
Do your homework
And try all the things
That makes you seem grown-up

But it’s Ok to take your time
There’s no rush
Trust me
You’re ahead of the line
To learn all you need to know
Get a head start on life
And gain the knowledge
To successfully grow

Bittersweet it seems
Leaving everyone behind
But you’ll meet new people
And plenty of friends, you’ll find

Time is going by so fast
I feel like I blinked
And five years flew past
I’m loosing my baby
But so proud of the person I see
Full of life
A confident young lady
You are turning out to be

~ Love You Princess