Reflecting: 2010 My year in Review

Reflecting:
2010 My year in Review


2010 almost over
And I’ve done more this year by myself
than I’ve accoplished in a few years
All because I stopped worrying about
What, when & how everyone else think I should be
I let go of the Fear
Of asking
Of doing
Of trying
Of failing
And of wanting more for myself without the guilt

I’ve made peace with the devil
And walked away with a light conscience
I’ve made a lot of friends, and didn’t loose any
I stepped outside the box and loved it
I dated a few and walked away when I needed to
My left hand was asked for twice
I said No and I have no regrets
I’ve done a lot of things, with no regrets
I’ve said a lot of things, with no regrets.

I’ve treasured everyday
Every moment,
treating it like a borrowed gift
I’ve let go of words like:
“I would BUT..”
“I cant”
And “I shouldn’t because”
Instead I made myself the epitomy of the quote:
I came, I saw and I conquered

I hit the books and got what I wanted
Just to prove to myself I could.
I loved harder, I smiled brighter, I forgave faster
I’ve had minor ups and downs
But I only took them as making me stronger, wiser and better.

I’ve given more and asked for nothing in return
I’ve litterally dance like noones watching
I’ve eaten everything I wanted
Just made better choices
So I don’t look like, what I eat

I’ve watched my daughter grow
Into an amazing, talented, smart, mouthy 5 year old
That I wouldn’t trade for anything in this world
I watch her sleep and wonder, how did I get so lucky.

I’ve made peace with God
And in return he’s accepted me, like I never left
I still cry when I pray because I know,
Even though I deserve so little
I’ve been blessed with so much
And no amount of paying it forward or giving back
Can ever sum up my gratitude for such blessings

This year has been another wonderful journey
And I can only hope to make it even better in 2011
So from my Family to yours, We’re wishing everyone
A safe & wonderful Holiday Season & Many more Blessings
Throughout the New Year


Peace & Love
Lisa Goycochea

*So you wanna be the wocket in pocket?

*So you wanna be the wocket in pocket?
A trinket that hangs off my body
Like a heirloom locket
The constant buzz in my head
The only other thing that gets me off in bed
Just the sound of your name
Makes my heart beat faster
And across my face,
That naughty smile I’ll plaster

*So you wanna be the wocket in pocket?
My alarm that chimes in the morning
And the chamomile that soothes me at night
My sweet yet satisfying addiction
Doesn’t matter; necessity or greed
I’ll keep you up
‘Cause you’ve got what I need

*So you wanna be the wocket in my pocket?
It’s a hard role to play
I can be the devil
I can be an angel too
These are the challenges
Just to name a few
Sinful days
Long nights
And servicing me without pay
Requirements: Physically fit
Able to handle me
And keep me lit
I’m tough but fair
I have to admit
The benefits are reasonable
But only if you commit

*Still wanna be the wocket in my pocket?
Heed this sirens advice:
If you’ve applied
Avoid the humiliating price
And hold onto your pride.
I have needs..
And I hate to feel deprived
If you can’t put in the work
Then application DENIED

So unless you’re the Energizer
I know you’d never survive
Cause my thirst alone
...Will devour you ALIVE.


© Lisa Goycochea 12/13/10

Sex and the City

Sex and the City: The Four Women, the Four Elements
Your results are based on the four Elements of Astrology: Fire, Earth, Air and Water. Each Element has its own set of characteristics, and each of us displays some combination thereof, usually with a focus on one or two. Samantha, Miranda, Carrie and Charlotte each personify one of the Elements and its basic traits. Which Elements most strongly influence you?



Note: Scores are rounded to one decimal place and therefore may not total 100%


You scored 50% Carrie
Your answers peg you as a Carrie-type, much influenced by the Air Sign qualities associated with Gemini, Libra and Aquarius. Like confident Carrie, a sex columnist, you're curious and perceptive, always seeking answers and never satisfied with the superficial. An Air Sign influence can lead to indecision and an avoidance of tough issues, like with Carrie and her on-again, off-again attachment to Mr. Big. Forward-thinking, incredibly intelligent and witty, you just exude quirky charm. You'd be utterly bored by someone who's just a pretty face or hot body -- though you don't mind looking and flirting! You're more turned on by an equally smart and funny mate, someone who challenges your mind and makes you laugh. You love to talk, so you need a good listener who's open to playful and eccentric ideas about love and lovemaking.


You scored 20% Samantha
You identify with Samantha's bold and liberated Fire Sign qualities, characteristics associated with the Signs of Aries, Leo and Sagittarius. You're strong, audacious and larger than life -- and you take what you want! Sometimes you can even be thoughtless and selfish, as you get so caught up in craving immediate gratification and excitement that you overlook someone's feelings. Your personal style likely reflects your desires: sleek, low-cut, revealing just a bit more than might be considered acceptable. Watch that you're not coming on too strong, though. You could scare potential suitors off with all your drama. If you seek so much attention, the more basic qualities of the Fire Signs could be burned right out of the picture. Show less skin or cleavage and more of your creativity, your vibrant leadership skills and courageous generosity!


You scored 20% Charlotte
A romantic at heart, you chose the answers that demure Charlotte may have chosen. Strongly influenced by the intuitive, profound and sometimes naïve Water Signs -- Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces -- you're like a mother, a mystery and a poet all in one. Though on the surface you may seem innocent and all about seeking the good in people, beneath the surface, you hide secret yearnings for intimacy, for attachment and ideal love. You're seeking a knight in shining armor, a soul mate, someone who will complete you and tether you to the earth when you get carried away with your fantasies. You're super-sensitive, soaking up the moods of others; you emote freely, crying at commercials and sappy movies. You also provide a shoulder to cry on and open arms for hugs. Be careful that you're not so wide-eyed and trusting that you get taken in by some cunning wolf in sheep's clothing.


You scored 10% Miranda
You chose many of the same answers that Earth Sign-like Miranda, the cynical but pragmatic lawyer, might have chosen. Just like Miranda's had a tough time deciding whether to give in to the affections of Steve the Bartender, you don't give your heart up to just anyone. Miranda shies away from a relationship with Steve because he's 'just' a bartender, not something more conventionally ambitious or stable. Those with powerful Earth Sign qualities -- characteristics associated with Taurus, Virgo and Capricorn -- are cautious in love and seek stability and status over nearly anything else. Earth Signs provide a steady, realistic attitude and they can bring order out of chaos. A little-known Earth Sign fact: Incredibly sensual, you seethe beneath that smart, expensive business suit of yours, yearning for intimacy but hesitant to give up your material needs, your career ambitions or your responsibilities for a passionate moment that might not turn out the way you'd hope



 

FEAR

I see you go about your day
Your heart is light but guarded
Mmmm, just the way I like it

I’m not an illusion
I’m here to stay
I'll show you what could be
And with one seed of doubt
I'll take it all away

Pretending I don’t exist
Doesn’t make it true
I am your worst Fear
And I dwell within you

Timing is everything
So I linger, laying in wait
And just in that perfect moment
Its panic that I’ll create

Standing back I admire
Smiling that evil grin
I watch it feed off your insecurities
You’ve hidden deep within

Feel that pounding in you chest?
That’s just me, doing what I do best
That confusing banter inside your head
Definitely me, ripping your beliefs to shreds

You think can make it?
I promise you, you won’t
You think you can do it?
I’ll make sure that you don’t

I’ve got you cornered
Flourishing your mind with guilt
Hovering, I remind you
How terrible life can be
Outside the walls we’ve built

I am the master that reigns in your head
I am the sound bites off the words
That’ll never be said
I’m that disappointed look in your eyes
And the scream that gets trapped behind that smile

I can make you feel
But only when I want you to
A controlling love affair
Shared between me and you
So whenever there’s doubt
That’s when I’ll re-appear
I’m your puppet master
Otherwise know as FEAR

© Lisa Goycochea 11/24/10

Our Kiss

 

as he looked at me
I just stared into his eyes.
the feeling im getting
from him is giving me butterflies.
he's like a good song in my head
hes amazing and hard to forget.
he looks at me
and he just takes my breath away.
I could tell by the look on his face
we both feel the same way.
as he looks into my eyes
then at my lips.
we both leaned forward
as we shared the moment
we've been waiting for.

That moment

……….. Our first kiss
 

Our Kiss

as he looks at me
I just stare into his eyes.
the feeling im getting
from him is giving me butterflies.
he's like a good song in my head
hes amazing and hard to forget.
he looks at me
and he just takes my breath away.
I could tell by the look on his face
we both feel the same way.
as he looks into my eyes
then at my lips.
we both leaned forward
as we shared the moment
we've been waiting for.

That moment

……….. Our first kiss


  Lisa Goycochea

If ... (So Random)

 If you were mine to keep

I wouldn’t change a thing

 © Lis Goycochea

Tease Me

Tie me down
Make me linger awhile
Tease my appetite
Quench my thirst
Whisper sweet nothings
That’ll intrigue my loins
Smear your honey
Across my lips
Leave me wanting..
Needing ..
Feigning for more
You’ve caught me
So show me
All you have in store
Make me your puppet
Tug on my strings
Make me do things
That’ll make even the devil cringe.


© Lisa Goycochea

Love Shoudn't Hurt

I remember when we met
Fresh feelings so new
You said, don’t worry baby,
I’m goin take of you

We were so in love
Kissy kissy here
Hugging everywhere
You said baby, if I can help it
You’ll never shed a tear

You said my eyes
Were like a mirror to your soul
You’d never leave me
I’ll always have your shoulder
And your hand to hold

I remember when, you said
You can’t bare another day
Of walking this life
Without me as your wife

I remember when
You got so excited
When the doctor said it was a boy
You promised to be a great dad
Because a father figure you never had

I remember all the good times we had
But then something changed
And at times
Things did seem ALL bad
You didn’t come home anymore
You barely said good bye
When you walked out the door
Got women calling our house
All hours of the night
And when I try to talk to you
You always start an argument
Then don’t come home out of spite

It’s painful
But I’m trying to go over
Everything that happened
Last Tuesday night
We had dinner
You insisted on picking a fight
I tried to agree with you
Just to avoid,
Another sleepless night

I remember telling you
We need some outside help
This abuse has gone on too long
And the first step to healing
Is admitting you are wrong

I even kept saying; If not for me
Then do it for our sons’ sake
And if you are not willing to change
Then we need to take a break

For a second…
I swear…
I saw your eyes go blank
And that’s when you snapped
‘Cause round my throat
Your arms were tightly wrapped

And when your Fist connected my face
I thought I was dead for sure
‘Cause everything went dark
As my blood trickled
And my bleeding body hit the floor

As tears roll from my eyes
I remember
Our son
Screaming in the background
I tried getting away
But it was, my stomach
That your size 11 found

I can remember the day
You said you’d treat me
like “I was your Queen”
Well here I lay
Beaten and bruised
The doctor said
I’m lucky to be alive
You’ve even ruptured my spleen

Laying here in this hospital bed
Has given me much time to think
Where we went wrong?
What I did or didn’t do?
To make you so angry
That you’d beat me lifeless
Leaving me black and blue

My heart is broken
And I just want to scream
I keep thinking
Any minute now,
I’ll wake up from this dream

My body is tattered
And my spirit is crushed
My memories are tarnished
The uncertainty of “He loves me”
Or “He loves me not”
Speaks louder
Every time I hear the beep
From the oxygen machine

This is my wake up call
Love Shouldn’t Hurt
No matter how great or small
So through these bandages
I can finally see
I’m not alone
And I’m still alive
Because a higher power
Was always watching over me


© Lisa Goycochea






*SPEAK UP, STOP THE CYCLE

For more information or to get help, please call:
National Domestic Violence Hotline 1800-799-7233

Note: Did you know
1 in every 4 women will experience domestic violence in her lifetime.
An estimated 1.3 million women fall victim to physical assault by an intimate partner each year.
85% of domestic violence victims are women.
And Most cases of domestic violence are never reported to the police.
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I'm Inspired

I’m inspired
I just want these lyrics to flow from my pen
Ripping from my soul this music within
Love it or hate it, this is how I do
Don’t care for my rhymes?
This is me, and not about you
My mind bubbles like a volcano
Tearing down boundaries like G.I Joe
When shit hits the fan
Some over-eat, others hit bottle
But when I’m unnerved
I grab a pen and go at it full throttle

Trapped in the Middle

Caught in the midst of this war
Behind the smile the claws hide
On either side I chose not to fight
I’ve waved my flag a long time ago
Made peace with the devil
Leaving God to deal with my foes
This is not my cross to bear
So loosing is not something I fear
I’ve paid my dues and to you nothing I owe
So for the last time
Grow Up and Let It All Go

Live & Let Live

Too much wanting
And not enough giving
Too much dreaming
and not enough living
Too much anger
And not enough forgiving
If you want your heart to be free
You have to let it go
Just let it be

It’s never a mistake
If you walk away with a lesson
Believe in yourself
You are blessed
So start counting those blessing

When your world seems dark & grey
It’s ok to cry, but remember
The sun has to come someday

Stop following the path
And make your own
You’ll never know if you can
Unless you try to walk alone

Some say experience is key
But its only experience
If beyond that
You’re too blind to see

Stop staring
at the closed door
and look around
for a window
Live your truth
Do the best you can
And when you feel
You can't go anymore
Raise yourself up
And reach alittle more

Stop talking
Start doing
Move the roadblocks from your mind
And you can accomplish anything
Peace comes from within
And if you can feel it
Others around you
Are likely to see it


Live and let Live
© Lisa g

My Little Graduate

My Daughter
My Heart
My Joy
From VPK
You’ve Graduated Today

As I watch you recite your lines
My heart tremors
As I try not to cry
I’m very proud of you
Today is your day
And I’m beaming with pride

Moving on to kindergarten
Seems like an eternity
But you’ve waited ever so patiently
I know you are excited
About riding the bus
Do your homework
And try all the things
That makes you seem grown-up

But it’s Ok to take your time
There’s no rush
Trust me
You’re ahead of the line
To learn all you need to know
Get a head start on life
And gain the knowledge
To successfully grow

Bittersweet it seems
Leaving everyone behind
But you’ll meet new people
And plenty of friends, you’ll find

Time is going by so fast
I feel like I blinked
And five years flew past
I’m loosing my baby
But so proud of the person I see
Bright
Full of life
A confident young lady
You are turning out to be

~ Love You Princess
6/10/10

Passions Ignite [Adult Content]

Passionate kisses
Making me wet
Bare nipples
At your attention
They stand erect
Kissing
Caressing
Hastily undressing
Take me
Right here
Right now
On this spot
Give me everything
Everything you’ve got

Heads tilting
Hips grinding
Legs stretched to the max
Muscle biting
Spine tingling
Each wave of pain
Busting through my desire
Fulfilling my need
A little pain with pleasure

No more hiding
No more being coy
This is what
We both waited for
Shut up
Sit back
And now close your eyes
Take a load off
Enjoy the ride

Sinful nothings
Whispered in my ear
Echoing I answered
Baby, I’m almost there
Climbing higher and higher
Intensely I grind
Tic-tock
Tic-tock
Tic-tock
And rewind


You looked at me
As devilishly I smiled
You moaned my name
As on your face I climbed
I inhaled deeply
And closed my eyes
As the warmth of your tongue
Setting off fireworks
Almost drove me blind

Flipping me over
I knew you were near
Legs quivering
Exhausted from the ride
As rapidly into them
Your body still collides
More thrusting
More moaning
My name, I did hear
Reading my thoughts
As my submission
Became all too clear
I need to be punished
Severely in everyway
Every movement
Every touch
Into your mercy I played
In every sense
Every notion
The rules were obeyed

Tension heightened
As we both came tumbling down
Ecstasy has found us
Filling our need
Covering me with warmth
Rewarding our efforts
With a big A+
Gasping to catch a breath of air
Your hand catches my head
As your lips find mine
Depleted without movement
Satisfaction written on our face
Bodies still entwined
As we held each other smiling
Collapsed in a tender embrace

Wishing "Just Enough" for You

 

Too often we all wish for more than we need or even more than we deserve
so for today, i'm wishing just ENOUGH for you

"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain
so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish enough "Hello's" to get you through the final "Goodbye."

After a While

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.
And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child
and you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn
that even the sunshine burns if you get too much
and instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers
you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn...

Beautifully Stated

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person
that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once
and it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how
it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast,
and you'll eventually lose someone you love.
So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've
never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

~anonymous~

Yearning Inside [Adult Content]

SWINGING ONE LEG OVER EFFORTLESSLY,
CRADDLING NIPPLES BRUSHING EACH OTHER,
NEEDING TO GET EVEN CLOSER ON YOUR SOFTNESS.
A COOL BREEZE CIRCLES,
ENDLESSLY WHISPERING SEDUCTIVELY (MAKE LOVE TO ME)
ECHOING, YOU ANSWERED WITH ONE ARM YOU HOLD STEADY,
THE OTHER MAKES CIRCLES INSIDE,
HEADS TILT FROM ONE SIDE TO THE OTHER.
GASPING UNTIL OUR EYES CRY RELIEF
A PART OF ME JUST DIED IN YOUR AURA
DISSOLVING OUR LUST,
RELINQUISHING THE FIRE.

Secret Admirer

From the moment I saw your face
I wondered what it would be like to feel your embrace
But I am held back by what society might say
And even you, what would you do
if you knew I secretly thought of you that way
Possible rejection haunts me
But one thing keeps me alive
Because you're always there when I close my eyes
Your aura a reflection of what I know is inside
So I continue to stare and hope for a chance
To someday take you in my arms
Lay you down in my bed and show you
the love a face like that deserves
You are my angel, my sunlight, the rain at night
That sinful dream, my inner desire
You are my secret.

Born Free

I stood at the edge of a pit,
glance down and counted my blessings
I raised my eyes to the sky and thank god I was born free
Praying for those before me who struggled
So today I can be free
Free to be me
No shackles that bind, No limits to my mind
I was born free
I shook my head at the past
Lift my voice & hand to the heavens
And celebrated this is not the last
Because I was born free
Free to be me
Celebrating my ancestors
Who fought and died ungracefully
To make a place for me in this world
Yes, I was born free
Completely free to be me
No longer will I sit where no one else will
Or be jail because there is no freewill
My value no more determined by
the color of the ground we walk on
Just the mere thought sends my body in a chill
Again I'll reach my hands to the sky
For I am black as can be
But still I was born free
Free to be me

20 Truths to Live By

OK, so they're not the only twenty "truths" to live by, but they're at least worth thinking about…


1. Faith is the ability to not panic.

2. If you worry, you didn't pray. If you pray, don't worry.

3. As a child of God, prayer is kind of like calling home every day.

4. Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be bent out of shape.

5. When we get tangled up in our problems, be still. God wants us to be still so He can untangle the knot.

6. Do the math. Count your blessings.

7. God wants spiritual fruit, not religious nuts.

8. Dear God: I have a problem. It's me.

9. Silence is often misinterpreted, but never misquoted.

10. Laugh every day, it's like inner jogging.

11. The most important things in your home are the people.

12. Growing old is inevitable, growing up is optional.

13. There is no key to happiness. The door is always open.

14. A grudge is a heavy thing to carry.

15. He who dies with the most toys is still dead.

16. We do not remember days, but moments. Life moves too fast, so enjoy your precious moments.

17. Nothing is real to you until you experience it, otherwise it's just hearsay.

18. It's all right to sit on your pity pot every now and again. Just be sure to flush when you are done.

19. Surviving and living your life successfully requires courage. The goals and dreams you're seeking require courage and risk-taking. Learn from the turtle -- it only makes progress when it sticks out its neck.

20. Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are.

My Love

I cant begin to tell you
All the things I love you for
I only know I love you everyday more and more
If there is one face I want to see my whole life through
One smile that makes a difference in everything I do
The simple touch of your hands that seems to make everything right
The gentle way you look at me when we kiss goodnight
I only wish everything could last forever
There's one joy, one love from which I never want to part
~I just want to be with you
Your that special someone in my world
My life, my heart

Me, my worst enemy

when everything seems to come crashing down around you,
even through tears you’ll see everything clearly..
constantly being dissapointed by people who once gave me hope.
Of being attracted to the unique and different.
Of trying to save everyone, when im in need of saving.
Of forcing myself to feel, because love is what I long for most.
Of craving the experience.
Of going completely insane on the inside.
Of going out of my way over and over again, even when i expect nothing in return.
Of forgiving too easily.
Of being my own worst enemy.

JUST A GURL

If you only knew, I am that gurl, I pretend not to be
I put on a smile for everyone to see
To shield my insecurities so the world cant hurt me .
The tough gurl
The rough gurl
Your gurl
The one who loves you endlessly
Same one with the split personality
The one who once fell from grace
Who looks for the sunlight upon your face
The tall Jamaican beauty
Who sometimes act alittle kooky
Who twirls her hair when no ones looking
Is delighted at the though of cooking
Wanting to be held like everyone else
Who cries on her pillow at night
Always telling others thing will turn out right
Would give anything; if your pain it would ease
Always praying for patience on bended knees
Loving without expectations
A hopeless romantic
Always thinking its better to have love and lost
Than not to have loved at all
A lust for you and life itself
But still skin deep, I'll hide myself
So you see
I am that gurl I pretend not to be
If you knew me at all
Wouldn't you agree?

Desire

When your around I always feel better
I crave your attention
Why you ? is beyond comprehension
With you days aren't so empty
Gentle sparks, flying here and there
Mesmerized I cant keep my eyes off you
kisses even sweeter, with the slightest touch
You cant begin to imagine, how it means so much
You're my Aphrodite
All the things I can't have
There is no doubt where I belong
For you it might not be love
But to me you're everything that I've dreamt of

Don't Grow up too fast

Hello! my mommy said no
She'd yell when she hastily answers the phone
Already two
Countless less things that you can do
Alittle feisty, tempered and rough
Your daddy is so proud,
Moms little princess is acting tough
Nothing said that you wont argue
Nothing done that you cant repeat
Watching your run around is always a treat
Growing up so fast, the memories I treasure
Watching you learn things before your time
Is a moms dream beyond any measure.

Upside to Anger

Anger and resentment can stop you in your tracks
It needs nothing to burn but the air that it swallow and smothers
Its real though, the fury, even when it isnt, it can change you ,
Turn you, mold you and shape you into someone your not
The only upside to anger then is the person you become
Hopefully someone that wakes up one day and realizes
they are not afraid of its journey
Someone that knows the truth is at best a partially told story,
that anger like growth comes in spurts and fits and in its wake
lies a new chance at acceptance and the promise of calm

For You.. A Birthday Wish

Another year older
And still your beautiful as can be
This whole time
It was you that completed me
To you I've given my heart
Please handle it tenderly
So much has grown between us
I trust you completely
Loved you discretely
You're my angel, my sunshine
Since I can never have you for my wife
You're officially my Lover for Life
I've loved you then and much more now
Only you can turn my frown upside down
Days go by and you're all I think of
So with all that said
I Just wanted to wish you a ..
A Beautiful Birthday, My Love

Parody to Britney Spears "You want a Piece of me"

My Parody to Britney Spears "You want a Piece of me"

This week is not yet over and it seems like the week from hell so far
everytime I turn around someone else wants a piece of me..
...so be prepared to pull back with repercussions.




YOU WANT A PIECE OF ME!


I'm that Jamaican Queen
Before I was 17
Dont matter if I'm still in the States
Or sipping drinks in the Carib-bean
They still goin talk about me
Like those hoochies from the magazines
You want a piece of me
They want a piece of me

I'm Miss bad in-fluence karma
Another day another dollar
Guess I can't see no harm
In working and being a single momma
And with a kid on my arm
I'm still a damn sexy head turner
You want a piece of me

I'm Mrs. Lifestyle of the free and reckless
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. oh my god, that Lisa shameless!
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. Extra, Extra this just in
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. she's too dark, now she's too thin
They want a piece of me

I'm Mrs. You want a piece of me
Talking and pissing me off
Well get in line with the haters
Cause I'm just flipping you off
Hoping I'll resort to some violence
End up loosing in court
Now are you sure you want a piece of me

I'm Mrs. Not likely to get on the TV
For stripping in the streets
When getting the groceries,
Looking dapper in my Fuck You heels
No wonder there's havoc in your family
I mean, please
You want a piece of me?

I'm Mrs. Lifestyle of the free and reckless
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. oh my god, that Lisa shameless!
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. Extra, Extra this just in
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. she's too dark, now she's too thin
They want a piece of me

I'm that Jamaican Queen
Before I was 17
Don't matter If I'm still in the States
Or sipping drinks in the Carib-bean
They still goin talk about me
Like those hoochies from the magazines
You want a piece of me
They want a piece of me

You want a piece of me?

I'm Mrs. Lifestyle of the free and reckless
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. oh my god, that Lisa shameless!
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. Extra, Extra this just in
You want a piece of me
I'm Mrs. she's too dark, now she's too thin
They want a piece of me


Me me me me !
Oh yeah
You want a piece of me????

I AM WORTH ALOT

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question "What kind of man are you looking for?" She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking, "Do you really want to know?" Reluctantly, he said, "Yes." She began to expound... "As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can’t do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man...or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, "What can you bring to the table?" The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money. She quickly corrected his thought and stated, "I am not referring to money, I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life. "He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain. She said, "I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don’t need a simple-minded man. I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don’t need to be unequally yoked...believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster. I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don’t need a financial burden. I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded. I am looking for someone who I can respect In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a helpmate for man. I can’t help a man if he can’t help himself. When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, "You are asking a lot. She replied, "I’m worth a lot."

Only thing missing is U

There is a longing so intangible,
lonely all too often
sitting quiet and alone..

Wanting you
Love, cast your glow on my path
Reassured my hesitations
And sparked these feeling of mine
I love to gaze into your eyes
We share a kiss so full of pleasure
Just to let you know what I feel inside
Smiles that lighten the darkest nights
Don't leave my side, please never go
As dusk sets
I smiled brightly after, replete and fulfilled,
Why can't I run from this?
"Oh my love, my darling"
Your touch, gentle as a feather
Souls approaching each other
So many steps apart we are
so close, but yet feels so far

What Lisa Means:

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

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Proverbial Truth

One can be unhappy by oneself,
but to be truly tormented, one must love.

Lingering on my Mind

Who knew
Alone I find myself thinking naughty things
A lot that include you
Not sure what it is
But there is something that keeps me lingering
Wondering, wanting, needing you near
Confused by mixed emotions
Things not in my control
I envision my arms around you
Raining kisses that warms my heart
The taste of you fired with spice
With a lil bit of you everything seems so nice

Better as a Memory

Like shattered glass
Erupting in slow motion
I watched
As everything
Falls slowly in mid-air
So sparkly
Fascinated
Like a child, I stare
Feeling no fear
Feeling no pain
Mesmerized
I reach out trying to touch
Thinking, if only…
I could shift everything around
Put the pieces back together
Just before it hits the ground
The more I moved it
Like a magnet
Pierce by piece
It shifts back into its space
I’m saddened
But I smiled
I know fate has decided
This is how it should be
So shattered or not
I know it’ll be better
Even if it’s just a memory

Empty Tummies

You hear it on the radio
You see it on the news
You pass them on the street
No roof over their heads
No shoes on their feet
They rummage the garbage
For just a morsel to eat

How can you sit and say
There’s not much you can do
You buy cigarettes
You buy booze
You buy things that
Eventually you’ll never used

Everyone complains times are hard
And everything’s hard to come by
They close their hearts to the outside world
With no trouble turning a blindside
No change to spare
No old clothes to share
Can’t go without food for a day
To put a smile on a face
Or feed someone else, who hasn’t eaten in days

Not as a Nation
But as Humans
We have to do better
How can you sit and eat
Sleep in your bed, wrapped in your comfy sheets
As there are kids hungry
Wandering homeless in the street

Each day so much is taken for granted
And each day, there’s so much more you can do
Change the way you treat the world
So when we’re older,
We can still enjoy the view

Don’t teach the next generation
It’s ok to turn a blind eye
Why?
Because they’re not of your relation
It’s ok to walk on by
Leave them there in their misery
Hungry
Tired
Laying there on the sidewalk
Just about ready to die?

Imagine if it were a neighbor
A lost friend
Or even of your kin
Shouldn’t matter the race
Neither should it matter
The color of their skin

As a fellow human
I’m here to say
This is our Race
If united we stand
Then united we should stay
There are others that need you
And just thinking about it
Won’t make it go away

So stop the cycle
Stop making the excuse
HELP FIGHT THE HUNGER
You’re help we can use
We can’t do it alone….
… WE CAN’T DO IT WITHOUT YOU

© Lisa Goycochea

Golden Lillies - R.I.P

Celina Sanchez-Ruiz
1/16/1932 – 10/7/2001



It’s been a while
Since I last saw your face
So full of character
I smile
As I picture you
Going about your day, so full of grace
I wonder if you watch over us
If you are proud of us
And if most of our actions
It was you who guided us

I started getting dressed
With just coffee on my mind
Then it was a pair of your earrings
My hands did find
For a moment, I just stared
Wasn’t sure what I wanted to do
I would love to wear them
But it’s all I have left of you

I remember that night you came to me
So beautiful,
You smiled so radiantly
My heart pumped so hard;
I started to cry
As regretfully I remember
Not being able to tell you goodbye
You hugged me, and told me you couldn’t stay
And said; "not to worry, everything will be Ok"

At times I come cross your picture
And wish that you were here
But I know God had a reason
A plan, much bigger for you up there
You’re not of my blood
But I loved you as such
You were a burning light in my heart
And today I still miss you
And love you, just as much

Life of a Shopperholic

Walking the mall is always a pleasure,
In every department I'll find a treasure
Consider it bought if it looks real nice,
Since I tend to forget budget and price
There is definitely no rule,
in this shopping pool
American Express, MasterCard, Visa,
they're like my workmans tools
I'll buy everything I don't need,
Just by habit, not by greed
Everything is bought in two or threes,
Another addiction I'm trying to squeeze
Shop, Shop, Shop where shall I start,
So hard to choose it breaks my heart

Chanel & Coach my two favorite stores
Marc Echo & Kimora are right next door
Ralph Lauren, Donna Karan & Baby Dior
Can't forget my Arianna that's for sure
Isaach Mizrahi not expensive at all,
Since most designs are in the target stores
Phat Farm, Perry Ellis,
Sean & Calvin Kline,
Will sure look fine on that man mine
Those Armani Jeans I bought last week,
Certainly makes my ass look chic
Department store makeup, I just wont try
..Don't use them too much, so I'll walk on by
Cautiously hovering the perfume stand,
Franticly spritzing on my hands
Alothough they have such a great selection
My new scent fix is the
Calvin Kline "Obsession"

Burberry, Celine & Christian Dior
I can smell satisfaction
as I walk through their doors
That Hermes bag, I'd love to have,
But would have to take on a second job
Yves Saint Laurent and Tiffany's jewels,
Now I'll be drowning in the bad credit pool
Fendi and Prada I just can't stand,
But Louie V. and Todds will hold my hand
That Burberry skirt I wanted so much,
Would go perfect with this Cavali clutch
House of Dereon my new obsession,
A $65 t-shirt in the bag without any questions

Today I spend,
tomorrow my pockets will hurt
But right now I'm only thinking about that Tommy Hil. Shirt
Checking out the stores with delight,
At least today I'm not shopping out of spite
Within the hour, my saving I've spent,
To these designers every cent went
Oh! Barnes & Nobles I just can't look,
I can never walk out with out a cookbook

Aching feet, empty pockets,
credit cards shot,
I'll convince myself I didn't spend a lot
Now I'm tired and completely worn out
Just in time to hit the Food Court
I go through receipts and create a tactic
Because there is no way in hell, I can explain
The mess, I just created on my plastics.

I Miss You

How can I possibly miss you this much?
Somehow you settle my heart with just a touch
The sound of your voice
Always makes me smile
This thing inside I’m trying to contain
Is becoming so hard to explain
You always seem so composed
I wonder how you keep your heart under control
The miles in-between, to you, may seem few
But to my heart, it feels like an eternity of missing you

In her shoes

Sassy yet so small
In her pink heels she stands tall
Full of pride
With a keenest eye for fashion
She’s my joy
The beat in my heart
The fairest of them all

Nurses: Our Wingless Angels

They never notice
I watch them go by
Jumping to the occasion
Never asking why
Their hours are long
Their days are tough
Yet they feel
Sometimes caring for their patients
Is not nearly enough

Politely flashing a smile so bright
Working hard
Sometimes with no vacation in sight
No bickering or separation
I’ve never heard them fight
Together they stand as one
Always helping each other, until the task is done

A schedule change here
Another there
Accommodating their patient’s needs & concerns
And doing it with Care
Excellence is their top priority
Devoting love and ministration
Yet never seeking recognition
There’s never a doubt
If they love what they do
Because they beam with pride
And they walk on through

If ever, you’re in need of a bunch so rare
To shine a light in time of despair
A prayer for comfort
Or brush away a tear
A hand to hold
Or a listening ear
Spewing words of encouragement
To get you on your way
Or simply whisper, “don’t worry, it’ll be ok”

Nothing compares to the work they do
Their shoulders are broad
And like Angels, their hearts are true
It doesn’t matter the color they wear
Yellow, red, pink, white or blue
Just consider yourself blessed
To have a Hospice Nurse
Taking care of you

Happy Nurses Week 4/27/10

Dedicated to My Anna

Another year gone by
Still you’ve made me so proud
You are my Rock, My Princess
For you, my feet are firmly on the ground

Packed full of energy
My ball full light
You’re so easy going
I constantly check on you
Especially; when you are too quiet

You’ve blossomed my inner child
Echoing laughter in my soul
So small my dear
Yet you have manage to keep me whole

I try to show you daily
How much you mean to me
For without you near my love
I’m not sure; of the kind of person I’d be

We’ve come along way
From you eating play doh
To now knowing, every song on the radio
I could never try to change you
To me perfectly fine
Already I see a bit of me
On display in you from time to time

I pray each night for the courage
To never let you down
Make you disappointed
Or replace your precious smile with a frown

I watch as you run off to play
And wish in my arms, you’d rather stay
Longing for the days….
Of my hand, you feared letting go
But I’ve shadowed and taught you well
And allowed you much room to grow

From the darnest things you say
To the simplest that amazes you
So eager to help me
Always trying to fill my shoe
I adore your unexpected hugs
And butterfly kisses too
I Love You Now and Always
Arianna Baby;
This one’s dedicated to you.

Im here for you

I'm going to be here for you baby
I'm going to be a woman of my word
Speak the language in a voice that you have never heard
I'm going to love you like noone else can
And make your world better than its ever been

standin still

My life stood still
Its true
Ive been stuck on space for a while
Empty and uninhabited
Then you came along
And lifeted me up
Breathe life my way
Opened the skies to a brighter day

A life lost
Faith diminished
Then here comes
Love renewed

You came to me
When I thought I didn’t need anyone
Showed me life
Renewed my faith
And gave me love again

Happy Birthday

As you blow out those candles tonight,
In my heart I hold you tight.
I so wish I could be there now,
Someway,somehow.

I wish you happiness on this day,
And may nothing but love, be on it's way.
Floating in the wind is a kiss for you,
A kiss filled with love, from me to you.

A decadent treat

A decadent treat
I want to keep
You soothe the carvings
From my wanting lips
To my quivering feet

Your aroma
So intoxicating
Captivatingly I stare
Selfishly I clutch you
I don’t ever want to share

So dark
So smooth
You hit the right spots
You’re everything I need
Heightening every indecent feeling I've got

Steadily I un-wrap you
Trying to make you last
No need to rush
No need to go fast

My buds water for a taste
I savor slowly
So nothing goes to waste
A nibble here and here
My excitement builds as I nibble there

My chocolate dream
You’re so divine
Ill always desire you
You’re always on my mind
When times are good; I’ll find you
When times are bad; I’ll embrace you
On my heart; this promise ill brand
“You’ll always melt in my mouth”
But if all else fails
Ill still tastily lick you from my hand.

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

Well the day is almost here
The one we get once a year
Cupcakes, greeting cards
Mommy & me trips
Whatever the case
They make us feel special
From our feet to our fingertips

From breakfast in bed
To the cards that are read
Hand-made crowns, made just for our heads
Kisses and Hugs, and “I Love You’s”
So much adoration, it’s all about you
There’s no doubt
This is a special day
They’ll show you love you
In there on own special way

Whether it be..
A woman without child..
Caring for them as if they were her own
A single dad, whole heartedly taking on the role
A stepmom working hard to reach the same goal
Grandparents nurturing grandkids with care
Or a friend helping out,
Since the momma or daddy’s never there

Whatever the case may be
Taking on the Title “Mom” is never easy
Here’s to anyone who’s ever cared for a child
A commendation is necessary
You deserve this high five
Doesn’t matter the circumstances
You’ve gotten yourself into
You are considered “MOM”
So from my heart to yours
This one’s DEDICATED TO YOU

Calling All Angels

I hear your voice
And your face, I picture
The flashback start
As memories of our path floods my mind

Pieces of my heart
Falls like a landslide
As you begin to cry
My heart pounds
As I listen to your every word

Holding back tears
So for you..
I can be strong
My palms sweat
As I begin to pray
Asking God;
Please send a Guardian Angel your way

With each pause of silence
Emotions push through
I tell you, it’ll be Ok
And if you need anything
I’m always here for you

I want to fold you in my arms
For comfort
For reassurance
Or just to let you know
My heart consumes your spirit
And we’re all routing for you to pull through

If I could
Believe me I would
Trade everything I have for your pain
If only;
That would make you All Better Again..

So Hard

Stupid Emotions
They make you cry
Make your heart bleed
Leaving you wanting to die
I’ve tucked it away for so long
he will to survive without it
has grown much too strong
I’ll bend but refuse to break
So my shielded heart doesn’t ache
I feel but I won’t fear
I hurt, but I’ll never shed a tear
Stumbling between fact and fiction
I still refuse to compromise
For fear of loosing myself

Idle Tears

Idle tears
I know not what you mean
It’s been awhile
Since my eyes you’ve seen
I’ve masked you so well
Neither friend, nor foe can ever tell


Idle tears
What does this mean?
This erratic pounding in my chest
Is attacking my emotions
Have me feeling a mess


Idle tears
I see you’ve broken free
And trying hard to get the best of me
Out of desperation, you’re being unfair
Blocking happy thoughts
Sending me a dose of your despair

Idle tears
Don’t make this so hard
You know emotionally
I’m always on Guard
My will is too strong
And we both know
On the outside you don’t belong


Idle tears
You might as well give in
Cause I’m determined today
You’re not going to win
I’ll close my eyes and count to three
That should be enough time
For you to defuse and depart from me

what about the others

Utterly exhausting
the turmoil we face
trying to avoid this selfish world
No choice but to trod on
Hoping for unity
Some preach the pure song
But still fail to follow along
But not everyone can see that hating is wrong

Be courageous
Be strong
words of our fore fathers
That bared it all
A chance for redemption
So in this life we can all stand tall
A task seemingly simple
Yet many loose sight and fall

Stupid girl

Walking along
Carrying her heart in her hands
Unguarded for everyone to see
She shakes from fear
Still she won’t listen to me

Stupid Girl
Please turn around
Back away slowly
Don’t make a sound

Stupid girl
Don’t you know?
The past you carry around
Are like your demons
They’ll keep you guarded
They’ll never let you down

Stupid Girl
Take my advice
Don’t make the same mistake twice
You’re giving your heart away
But what you’re getting back
Is it worth the price?

Stupid Girl
I'm always here
Those nights you cried
I held your tears
And through the darkness
I was there
Whispering comfort in your ear

Stupid Girl
I don’t understand
I’ve done everything to protect
That heart you hold in your hands

Stupid Girl
Please explain
Please tell me these walls we built
Wasn’t built in vain


Stupid Girl
Don’t leave me now
You and I, we made a vow
We’ve come so far
I made you strong
Built you tough
So no one can do you wrong

Stupid Girl
Here my plea
Before it’s too late
I hope you’ll see
There is no one else out there
That’ll love you better than me

Stupid Girl
We’ve come so far
I’ve done all I can to make you stay
Seems you’ve got a plan
Your mind I can’t sway
But if you ever need me
I'm just a guarded wall away

I wanna be II

I wanna be that sparkle in you eye
In a proud sense I wanna say, yes that’s my guy

I wanna be the one that lingers on your mind
In your darkest place, it’s my face you’ll find

I wanna be more than your lover & your friend
I want to be your girl for more than a day past the end


I wanna be the reason for the smile on your face
That gap in your heart, I wanna fill the space

And when you feel everything seems out of place
I wanna be your comfort, through our embrace

And on the days you just need some quiet time
Snuggled quietly beside you is where I wanna climb

And on the days you’re feeling down
I wanna be the one to chase away your frown

And when nothing seems to go your way
I wanna be the one telling you, it’ll be ok

And when you feel you can’t reach no more
I want to be the hand yours reach for

And when you seem to be confuse
I wanna be the voice of reason you choose

And if ever you feel lost or seem despair
You can always look to me
Because I’ll always be standing right here


And in the moments, you feel content
I wanna be the one to share you joy

I wanna be close to you

For everything that you have given me
Ill take an eternity to give it all back to you
And if that’s what it takes to be close
Then an eternity will just have to do


of anyone that I can think of
my heart screams only for you
there is so much about you that caught my eye
that stirs my soul and gives my tummy butterflies


I can only wish you feel the same
Wanting me like I want you
Without the drama and the games
There is so much I want to give you
If only you can assure me, what you feel is true

Lucky to have you

you opened up my heart
and i let you inside.
you held me close
as we both intertwined.
I lean on your shoulder
as you held me tight.
I knew this moment
just felt so right.
your smile lightens up my day
like the stars in the sky.
I'm so lucky to have you
right here by my side.

Why Cant I tell you I love you.

As I look up into the sky,
My mind tumbles through the day.
And I can't help but ask myself why,
You make me feel this way.

Our meeting drifts through my mind.
The memory of you, I can't leave behind.
Thinking about it, and thinking of you.
Is about the only thing that I can do.

How can I forget your smile?
Or the twinkling of your eyes?
You make the regret worthwhile,
I can't ignore the butterflies.

They start to flutter and die,
Every single, damn time,
I gaze up into your gentle face,
And then my heart begins to race.

Yet still I wait and bide my time,
Waiting poised, to commit the crime.
As your lips curve into a smile,
My heart jumps and runs a mile.

The allure of your cheeky grin,
Begs for me to commit the sin.
From you, there is no where to hide.
The agony is more then I can describe.

It's almost as if nothing else matters,
All I hear is my heart as it stops and splatters,
It's like nothing else can make a sound.
Every single time you are around.

But your breathing pounds in my ears,
It's soothing and calming in a way,
Yet my mind goes completely blank.
I just don't know what to say.

I am conscious of all the people,
Watching us the way they do.
Yet a part of me ignores them.
To me there is only you.

And then my time is up,
I know I have to go.
It's hard and devastating.
And I wish it wasn't so.

So back I go to my place,
Where I lay and think about your face.
Only to repeat the day,
Once again with nothing to say.

The silence is the worst,
One day I swear, I will break the curse,
And my feelings will be made clear,
I will be bold, and strong, and free of fear.

I will tell you how much I care,
And I will promise you I will be there,
But until then, I will be in the shadows,
Waiting, praying in these meadows,

And until that day you will not see,
The truth that has enveloped me.
Because you must never know,
That I am the one, that loves you so.

Mixed Emotions

Having a sad day
A mind numbing,
wrecking my brain kinda day
So many thoughts plague my head
For reasons I cant understand
Mixed emotions
Sparks like that of a welders tool
Too much smoke to sort thru
Chatter all around
I try to smile thru my mind numbing frown
Tucked in my own world
Tapping at the keys
Hoping to get some of this jumble out
Love, lost, family and friends
So much I need to let out

Anticipation of you

My entire day
Has been in anticipation
Of you
Of seeing you
Knowing you'll smile at me
Because you always do
your warmth i can rely on
your heart beating so strong
can't wait to throw my arms around you
because thats where i know i belong

Trapped in a heart of glass.

Like that firefly trapped in ajar
I look out on the world
Things reachable
Things so close but untouchable
I see the emotions
The pain the angish
But trapped inside
There is nothing to do but wish
I want to touch you
To hold you
Cradle you tight
And be your guide

Is it you

I'm looking for someone to share my heart with
Is it you
The one who I can run to
Could that be you
Someone who can make me smile
Holds my hands and chase away the pain
Is it you
Tell me it’ll be alright when things don’t look so bright
Is it you
Are you one for me

In Your Presence

In your presence, my heart races
My heart, in your presence, races,
yet stops with a single look
into your eyes.
A Spy in the House of Love
sees through my disguise,
and my soul is an open book.

You fill up all of my senses
with a single touch,
the smell of your hair
the taste of your lips
and your deep blue-eyed stare.
My heart, as such, is racing
as the lines on your palm
my lips are tracing.
Dissolving our mutual defenses.

My heart, in your presence, races,
Yet stops with a single look
Into your eyes.
Endless and warm
as a thousand blue skies.
Then I cover the distance
between our faces
and our lips find
perfect coexistence.

Doubt Shadows Me

The words are a whisper
But they all sound so sweet
Genuine or not
I still melt at your feet

Confused by indecision
I still want you without reason
It’s hard when you’re not around
But thoughts of you
Lifts my spirits from the ground

So many times I want to ask
Am I the pebble in your path?
Or soon to be a thing of your past
I can’t help but wonder, if this is real
For the words that aren’t spoken
Makes me doubt how you feel

Stolen Time

Like a stallion running wild
My heart starts to beat
It gallops to the rhythm
As his kisses makes me weak
Here
There
And there
Exhale and repeat
He holds me closer and my palms start to sweat
As his warm breath crash against the nape of my neck
Exhaling to control my hunger
My want
My need
My will to suppress them, I shall no longer feed
I close my eyes as my tongue trails his lips
Our legs entwined
Energy flows from toes to our finger tips
Tightly we embrace as if tonight was our last
My fears start to fade, shadowing the past
He caresses my body one inch at a time
And I, his, as if it were mine

You Found Me

I'm not sure how to say it
Or a clue as what to do
All I know for sure is that
I keep thinking about you
Your sweet butterfly kisses
Tend to makes me feel hazy
You touch drives me wild
I miss you so much when you are gone
So for comfort I’ll visualize your smile
I'm not sure where this is going
Or where you’d like it to be
I can only hope what you’re looking for
You’ve found some of it in me.

Loving You, Silently

I lay here in your arms
Listening to our heats beat
Absorbing your warmth
In my mind this moment
I lock away forever to keep
As I look at you, my eyes utter the words
My lips dare not speak
You gaze back at me, so intently
And slowly my heart grows weak.

YOU

I can’t help but to think of you
Kissing you
Holding you
Making love to you
I feel like a school girl with a crush
When you leave I miss you so much
I long to see your face & feel your sweet embrace
i hope you don’t think these feelings are wrong
in a such a short time ive come on strong
ive opened my heart, I'm ready to to accept
what you have to offer from the first day we met
there is one explanation, one emotional truth
which makes my heart beats faster when I think of you

His Guidance

Strolling through life,
seeing nothing in between
Just a sideview blur of the black and the whites
No knowing what I want
Or exactly what I want to do
I ask, lord please guide me
Because I’m completely lost without you

My Small Package

The laughter that heals my soul comes but in a small package
Filled with hugs and tons of random kisses
Filled with I love u’s and small feet trying to fill my shoes
Sitting on the counter waiting to bake more cookies
Small hands always eager to help
Questioning authority, the occasional No and the infamous BUT WHY
This laughter which heals my soul, comes in such a small package
Unwrapped each day and tucked away safely with kisses each night.

Thine Angel

With soft blue eyes he pierced my soul
And unseen wings he cradles and hold
Guiding from afar with a watchful eye
Spewing words of encouragement helping me get by
Lying in the midst of my darkness, a hand I did see
Without reserve or expectation, this angel
My angel is here, guiding and strengthening me

dedicated to my friend *MH

A lie in a frame

Big smiles
Always happy moments
Captured by the camera
Just by looking
No one truly knows
What happened before the flash
Tacked on the wall
Or sitting on a surface
The untold tale
A lie in a frame

No sniffles
No tears
No sadness
Or even a hint of fear
Just put on a smile
And for that moment
Everything you are feeling
Fades to that emotion
That runs from ear to ear

No one takes pictures
Of things they want to forget
That’s how it’s done for decades
It hasn’t changed yet
Never questioned why
Only happy moments are taken
A simple smile shadowing a lie
Just another moment, frozen in time

Idealism versus reality
Only things to be remembered
Doesn’t matter how, when or where
They always look the same
Frozen forever perfectly
A lie trapped in that frame

Do unto others

Demanding more
But gave so little
So afraid, not to be heard
But never care to listen
So many words
But when it came my time
Nothing from your lips
Did my eager ears find
Tried to make you see
The angle from where stand
Opening a window to my soul
Begging for you to understand
But through my eyes
Nothing that was meaningful
You ever cared to see
Only the snares and sarcasm at the end
Which was just a little something
You, yourself taught me

BARELY HANGING ON

As I try so desperately to end
Years of shattered memories
That I thought I could mend

I try to be guarded
From what scares me the most
But that all caved in
Every time I got close

Giving up is easy
Its what ive always done best
That’s why this time around
My need, NOT to give in
Each day was put to the test

Equality is the key
Stand by my side
You no lower
Or me, higher
I don’t ask for much
So I never do expect
But your imagination of me
Was unbearably
Way too “Perfect”

I’m not that complicated
As I sometimes seem
My trust is highly guarded
If you want to unlock me
The only thing, you need to remember
Honesty is always the key

So now why is it,
that after the worse has worn us down
We still sit and wonder
If Only….

So instead of becoming
What was
And disappearing with out a trace
If you want me
Here I am
Come and get me

My Truth seems to sometimes cut like a knife
My honesty is sharp
always seem to cut like a knife
And just like everything else

Becoming what was…
Has disappeared from my life

Coffee Lover

Replaying backwards
Trying not to forget
Remembering as far back
As the first day we met
the silly moments
the talks
the treats
the full moon
as we walked on the beach
Treasuring the moments
that started with coffee
and sincerely grew from a kiss

Alone I lay

Last night as I lay
Complacent on my bed
Sole thoughts of you
Possed my head
Finally fell asleep
I think I dreamt a bit
Because suddenly
My darkened room
Is now fully lit
Quickly I looked around
To see if you were there
That’s when I realize
I must be in a dream
For what once was
No longer lays here

Surviving

Struggling between facts and fiction
I'm lost but I'm alive
Everyone around me is trying to make a statement
Then there's me
I'm just trying to survive

Alone I sit and wonder

Alone I sit and wonder
Hoping to understand
How much longer I’ll wait
Closing my eyes
Holding my hands out to fate
Determined not to fail
I try even harder
Determined not to fall
I cautiously move faster
Determined not to give in
I give it my all
Determined not to quit
I stride forward, still holding on
Determined to do my best
Alone, I’ll sit and wonder
Even more determined to overcome

In this darkness

Don’t know why its so hard
Feels like these lines
Just empty letters pushed together
Nothing taken seriously
Or attempt to hear me out
Nothing makes it better
Looking on in sadness
Waiting for this darkness to end

She saves me every time.

Slowly I sink
I keep grasping
But there’s nothing to hold on to
Lost in open water
Overwhelmed by its torment
My mind’s drowning
Lost control under the surface
Looking up, I watch as above me
The waves crash all around

Gasping for a breathe
I lost my clarity
I can’t seem to hear
Panic rings through my head
My eyes keep searching
My arms keep grasping
My legs keep trying
But slowly I sink
Tired
I’m trying not to let go
With bloodshot eyes
I’m fighting to stay alive

Taking another look up
I saw the sunlight
How majestically it shined
With bright rays that hit the water
A lighted tunnel almost like a guide
I picture your face
Your eyes telling me you need me
I see your smile
It wraps & warms me like a blanket
I can almost hear your laughter
I picture you at play
I remember the first day I held you
The promise I made you that day

Determined not to sink
Forcing myself to act
Mustering the strength
Giving it one more shot
Closing my eyes
Arms abreast
I pushed forward
And pushed forward
Finally breaking the surface
Jumping out of a dream
Waking up in a sweat

I looked in on you sleeping
Thinking….
Even in dreams you tend to save me
Smiling, I listened to you breathing
Kissed your forehead
Then your rosy cheeks
Once
Twice
And another
just because

~mom

Dont Waste my Time

Its sad how some people say they want one thing
And when its serve up them
They don’t know what to do with it.
So tired of the imposters, the loosers, the wanna be’s
Don’t waste the moments playing head games
You’re only wasting everyone’s time in the end

Lisa’s RANT

Tired of caring
Tired of being the one
Tired of always being sane
Never the one to complain

Tired of being the shoulder
Sometimes both being cried on
Tired of being lied to
Always asking for truth
But to truth, I’m always so blind to

Tired of you making me crazy
Shattering my thoughts
And making my mind hazy
Tired of feeling detached and lost
Conflicted and confused
Even more so, with something so fragile at cost

Tired of being afraid
Tired of feeling like I failed
Tired of being the rock
As your feelings I spare
Mine gets pushed to the back

Tired of hearing, what everyone wants
Tired of the imposters, the losers, the wanna be’s
If you want truth, speak it
If you want love, give it
If you want honesty, be it
If its just ass you want, say it
Tired of the wasted moments
Caught up in the head games

Tired of making everyone feel secure
So I can fix your problems
My tearful emotions always get left at the door
Tired of the emotional cracks
The scars from the stabs wounds left in my back

Tired of being so selfless
The good girl that seems in control
The ear everyone whispers in
But when my heart breaks
Everyone goes scattering

Tired of being in this maze
And not sure where to run
No sure what else to do
YET, I still ask
What can I !!
DO FOR YOU?

Why is it?
Whenever you need me, I’m always there
Whenever you need a shoulder, I carry a spare
Whenever you need to love, I smother your heart
Whenever you need a friend, I’m there till the end
Even when its crap, all my attention, …. To you I still give
Alive yet each day, feels like in an eternity of torment I live

Just hurts to shuffle
And rearrange my life
Scarping out the cobwebs
Trying to push through the strife
So many friendly faces
Some near, others here from the start
Just sad that no one really see
What’s eating at my heart.

Somewhere in between

Too much going on in my mind
Yet not one steady thought, I can find
Grasping desperately,
I need to know
Why it is, that my past still hurts me so
Energy always burning low
From the nights I stay awake
Battery blinking on empty
Sadness and worry
Throughout the day are plenty
Just by looking at me
No one would know
My nights are restless
My heart shrunken and cold
Today seem longer than usual
Left me tired and feeling alone
My nerves are strung
As anxiety shun my heart the normal beat
From silently pining for the one
Whose love and affection I seek
An eerie stillness in the air
No sounds from her to comfort
Helpless I lay and stare
No music to distract
Just lost in thought
Worn out and detached
In my mind, I search for your smile
Lately its seems like a spec
Frantically I’m trying to find
Too often saying the words
I’m sorry
Even, for the things
I’m not sure I did
Confused,
I bury myself in wonder
And hope by days end
Or before the day is lit
I’ll hear your voice
That sounds so sweet
The sound I long for
The one that makes me
Feel complete

Its the things not said ..

The words that aren’t spoken
Tends to hurt the most
Diminishing the one thing
We’ve been holding so close
Can’t help but wonder; Why me,
In the present, is so hard to be seen
But next time you want to judge
Who and Where I’ve been
Before you point that finger,
Make sure your hands are clean

The Pages

The pages

Interlaced with my life
Seems too much to bear
Overcome by criticism
Can’t seem to keep you near
I lock me away
Thought I lost the keys
But here, I find me
Feeding your curiosity

Laying alone
Envisioning everything crashing down
Feeling overwhelmed, too upset to cry
I close my eyes, …..thinking
It would be so much easier
If only I lied

Nothing good,
Ever comes from looking back
Only forward,
Repairing and replace the things
From the past that you lacked

There is nothing more about it
That I want to say
For there are things that still
Haunts me up to this day
The things I had no hand in weaving
Just a child’s, painful incision
Too much avoidable hurt
If only with better adult supervision

Can’t change
How life’s’ circumstances made me
I try to open up
Yet I am beaten, broken and left bruised always
Drowned by my words
Strangled by my “history”
The things about me
That many declare a mystery

Tired of the convictions
The disappointing tone
Can’t handle, just me
Then it’s best you go
Leave me the option
Of growing….
Or simple …..
Let me be alone .

Unfold Me

Always a barrier
That needs tearing down
I try to be the simple girl
And never wear a frown
My life has changed me
More bad than good
Many tend to see
My outward projection & criticize
My misunderstood imperfection
Hold me
Tell me it’ll be ok
Keep me
Tell me
You want me to stay
Help!
Take my hand
Hear my voice
Help me see
Because in your eyes
I am small
I am needy
I am helpless
Don’t turn away
Unfold and Love me

Circles

Feels like I’ve been here
So many times before
Standing at this same crossroad
Tear soaked cheeks
And a heavier heart
I’ve stared at this path
That has no end
Resentment and anger
Both closely hovering
Deluded by hurt and blame
So much locked in
So much baggage carried in my heart
Don’t mean to hurt
Or tear another story apart
There’s no one to run to
No shoulders to catch my tears
No arms to hold me close
And chase away those fears
Alone I face the world
One sunrise at a time
Burying everything else within
Living today as if there is no other
And even though I hurt
No one knows my pain
Because through it all
I’ll always continue smiling

What is LOVE

Excerp from the Movie: 2001 Captain corelli mandolin
nick cage and Penelope cruz

"Love is temporary madness; it erupts like volcanos, then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because that is what love is. Love is not breathlessness. It is not excitement. It is not the promulgation of eternal passion. That is just being in love, which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both art and a fortunate accident. Those that truly love have roots that grow toward each other underground, and when all the pretty blossoms have fallen from their branches, they find that they are one tree, not two."

Emotional Weakness

I wear my heart under my sleeve
To be seen but not by many
Challenging the future and what it has in store
Getting up with a longing, searching for more
Why do we need to be loved?
Why is it hard to accept, when we find it?
Why isn’t it ever enough?
Where is the love that holds simplicity?
Why do we make it an obsession
To be in Love with Love itself?

I’ve given everything of me so freely
Loving wholly, unwise but still completely
Never wanting anything in return
Knowing I have so much to give
Wanting, yearning, craving more
Those moments that makes you weak
Melts the heart and captures your speech
Embraces that make the world around you disappear
Holding on to that moment
Because with no one else you would rather share
Giving everything you’ve got
That emotion we feel, but never find the right words to say
In your powerless and weakest moment, it’ll confront you
Convince you to let go, trust and blindly jump in
Some are fortunate to find it
Others never knew they wanted it till they lost it
Buried deep inside, this emotional weakness
With the power to rip you apart bit by bit
And yet put you back together with that first kiss

Lost and Found

Today I found something
Truly mysterious and rare
A golden box with a heart
That needed care
Was just another day
Moving about my way
And there it was
Laying there,
Just because
Open and vulnerable
For all the world to see
But no one did,
not a soul but me
How can it be?
Me, Finding a vessel
Designed so beautifully
Perplexed by its design
Astound by its presence
How could one be so blind?
Leaving such a precious gift behind
I took it in my hands and held it near
And promised now and always
To love, cherish and give it endless care


Incomplete ………….

FOR YOU

For you, I will close my eyes and dream
Warm sunshine, for those rainy days
Those rainy days, that turn into memories
And when all seems lost, through my eyes
I’ll hope for you warmth and calmness
from the sunrise on the horizon
that smiles upon your face
and ever so gently softens your heart

Falling

Floating in this a shapeless form
Pulled apart and slowly drawn back together
Feels like im drowning in my thoughts
Don’t seem to get much sleep at night
But I know soon everything will be alright