Treasuring Your Memory

Sadness becomes you
Leaving you in disbelief
Offering you darkness
And a blanket of grief

Over and Over
We questioned; “why?”
Why were you chosen?
Why did you, have to die?

Our hearts are broken
And too shattered to understand
That what it is, we hoped for you
Wasn’t part of Gods Plan

He shouldered your burdens
He saw your heart
He knew what ailed you
And decided;
You need a new start

So with sadness in the air
And tears in our eyes
We’ll gather together
To celebrate you
And say our final goodbyes

We’ll treasure your memories
And hold thoughts of you, dear
And carry you in our hearts
Through out the coming years.


© ~Lisa Goycohea
3/18/11

Reflecting: 2010 My year in Review

Reflecting:
2010 My year in Review


2010 almost over
And I’ve done more this year by myself
than I’ve accoplished in a few years
All because I stopped worrying about
What, when & how everyone else think I should be
I let go of the Fear
Of asking
Of doing
Of trying
Of failing
And of wanting more for myself without the guilt

I’ve made peace with the devil
And walked away with a light conscience
I’ve made a lot of friends, and didn’t loose any
I stepped outside the box and loved it
I dated a few and walked away when I needed to
My left hand was asked for twice
I said No and I have no regrets
I’ve done a lot of things, with no regrets
I’ve said a lot of things, with no regrets.

I’ve treasured everyday
Every moment,
treating it like a borrowed gift
I’ve let go of words like:
“I would BUT..”
“I cant”
And “I shouldn’t because”
Instead I made myself the epitomy of the quote:
I came, I saw and I conquered

I hit the books and got what I wanted
Just to prove to myself I could.
I loved harder, I smiled brighter, I forgave faster
I’ve had minor ups and downs
But I only took them as making me stronger, wiser and better.

I’ve given more and asked for nothing in return
I’ve litterally dance like noones watching
I’ve eaten everything I wanted
Just made better choices
So I don’t look like, what I eat

I’ve watched my daughter grow
Into an amazing, talented, smart, mouthy 5 year old
That I wouldn’t trade for anything in this world
I watch her sleep and wonder, how did I get so lucky.

I’ve made peace with God
And in return he’s accepted me, like I never left
I still cry when I pray because I know,
Even though I deserve so little
I’ve been blessed with so much
And no amount of paying it forward or giving back
Can ever sum up my gratitude for such blessings

This year has been another wonderful journey
And I can only hope to make it even better in 2011
So from my Family to yours, We’re wishing everyone
A safe & wonderful Holiday Season & Many more Blessings
Throughout the New Year


Peace & Love
Lisa Goycochea

*So you wanna be the wocket in pocket?

*So you wanna be the wocket in pocket?
A trinket that hangs off my body
Like a heirloom locket
The constant buzz in my head
The only other thing that gets me off in bed
Just the sound of your name
Makes my heart beat faster
And across my face,
That naughty smile I’ll plaster

*So you wanna be the wocket in pocket?
My alarm that chimes in the morning
And the chamomile that soothes me at night
My sweet yet satisfying addiction
Doesn’t matter; necessity or greed
I’ll keep you up
‘Cause you’ve got what I need

*So you wanna be the wocket in my pocket?
It’s a hard role to play
I can be the devil
I can be an angel too
These are the challenges
Just to name a few
Sinful days
Long nights
And servicing me without pay
Requirements: Physically fit
Able to handle me
And keep me lit
I’m tough but fair
I have to admit
The benefits are reasonable
But only if you commit

*Still wanna be the wocket in my pocket?
Heed this sirens advice:
If you’ve applied
Avoid the humiliating price
And hold onto your pride.
I have needs..
And I hate to feel deprived
If you can’t put in the work
Then application DENIED

So unless you’re the Energizer
I know you’d never survive
Cause my thirst alone
...Will devour you ALIVE.


© Lisa Goycochea 12/13/10

Sex and the City

Sex and the City: The Four Women, the Four Elements
Your results are based on the four Elements of Astrology: Fire, Earth, Air and Water. Each Element has its own set of characteristics, and each of us displays some combination thereof, usually with a focus on one or two. Samantha, Miranda, Carrie and Charlotte each personify one of the Elements and its basic traits. Which Elements most strongly influence you?



Note: Scores are rounded to one decimal place and therefore may not total 100%


You scored 50% Carrie
Your answers peg you as a Carrie-type, much influenced by the Air Sign qualities associated with Gemini, Libra and Aquarius. Like confident Carrie, a sex columnist, you're curious and perceptive, always seeking answers and never satisfied with the superficial. An Air Sign influence can lead to indecision and an avoidance of tough issues, like with Carrie and her on-again, off-again attachment to Mr. Big. Forward-thinking, incredibly intelligent and witty, you just exude quirky charm. You'd be utterly bored by someone who's just a pretty face or hot body -- though you don't mind looking and flirting! You're more turned on by an equally smart and funny mate, someone who challenges your mind and makes you laugh. You love to talk, so you need a good listener who's open to playful and eccentric ideas about love and lovemaking.


You scored 20% Samantha
You identify with Samantha's bold and liberated Fire Sign qualities, characteristics associated with the Signs of Aries, Leo and Sagittarius. You're strong, audacious and larger than life -- and you take what you want! Sometimes you can even be thoughtless and selfish, as you get so caught up in craving immediate gratification and excitement that you overlook someone's feelings. Your personal style likely reflects your desires: sleek, low-cut, revealing just a bit more than might be considered acceptable. Watch that you're not coming on too strong, though. You could scare potential suitors off with all your drama. If you seek so much attention, the more basic qualities of the Fire Signs could be burned right out of the picture. Show less skin or cleavage and more of your creativity, your vibrant leadership skills and courageous generosity!


You scored 20% Charlotte
A romantic at heart, you chose the answers that demure Charlotte may have chosen. Strongly influenced by the intuitive, profound and sometimes naïve Water Signs -- Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces -- you're like a mother, a mystery and a poet all in one. Though on the surface you may seem innocent and all about seeking the good in people, beneath the surface, you hide secret yearnings for intimacy, for attachment and ideal love. You're seeking a knight in shining armor, a soul mate, someone who will complete you and tether you to the earth when you get carried away with your fantasies. You're super-sensitive, soaking up the moods of others; you emote freely, crying at commercials and sappy movies. You also provide a shoulder to cry on and open arms for hugs. Be careful that you're not so wide-eyed and trusting that you get taken in by some cunning wolf in sheep's clothing.


You scored 10% Miranda
You chose many of the same answers that Earth Sign-like Miranda, the cynical but pragmatic lawyer, might have chosen. Just like Miranda's had a tough time deciding whether to give in to the affections of Steve the Bartender, you don't give your heart up to just anyone. Miranda shies away from a relationship with Steve because he's 'just' a bartender, not something more conventionally ambitious or stable. Those with powerful Earth Sign qualities -- characteristics associated with Taurus, Virgo and Capricorn -- are cautious in love and seek stability and status over nearly anything else. Earth Signs provide a steady, realistic attitude and they can bring order out of chaos. A little-known Earth Sign fact: Incredibly sensual, you seethe beneath that smart, expensive business suit of yours, yearning for intimacy but hesitant to give up your material needs, your career ambitions or your responsibilities for a passionate moment that might not turn out the way you'd hope



 

FEAR

I see you go about your day
Your heart is light but guarded
Mmmm, just the way I like it

I’m not an illusion
I’m here to stay
I'll show you what could be
And with one seed of doubt
I'll take it all away

Pretending I don’t exist
Doesn’t make it true
I am your worst Fear
And I dwell within you

Timing is everything
So I linger, laying in wait
And just in that perfect moment
Its panic that I’ll create

Standing back I admire
Smiling that evil grin
I watch it feed off your insecurities
You’ve hidden deep within

Feel that pounding in you chest?
That’s just me, doing what I do best
That confusing banter inside your head
Definitely me, ripping your beliefs to shreds

You think can make it?
I promise you, you won’t
You think you can do it?
I’ll make sure that you don’t

I’ve got you cornered
Flourishing your mind with guilt
Hovering, I remind you
How terrible life can be
Outside the walls we’ve built

I am the master that reigns in your head
I am the sound bites off the words
That’ll never be said
I’m that disappointed look in your eyes
And the scream that gets trapped behind that smile

I can make you feel
But only when I want you to
A controlling love affair
Shared between me and you
So whenever there’s doubt
That’s when I’ll re-appear
I’m your puppet master
Otherwise know as FEAR

© Lisa Goycochea 11/24/10

Our Kiss

 

as he looked at me
I just stared into his eyes.
the feeling im getting
from him is giving me butterflies.
he's like a good song in my head
hes amazing and hard to forget.
he looks at me
and he just takes my breath away.
I could tell by the look on his face
we both feel the same way.
as he looks into my eyes
then at my lips.
we both leaned forward
as we shared the moment
we've been waiting for.

That moment

……….. Our first kiss
 

Our Kiss

as he looks at me
I just stare into his eyes.
the feeling im getting
from him is giving me butterflies.
he's like a good song in my head
hes amazing and hard to forget.
he looks at me
and he just takes my breath away.
I could tell by the look on his face
we both feel the same way.
as he looks into my eyes
then at my lips.
we both leaned forward
as we shared the moment
we've been waiting for.

That moment

……….. Our first kiss


  Lisa Goycochea

If ... (So Random)

 If you were mine to keep

I wouldn’t change a thing

 © Lis Goycochea

Tease Me

Tie me down
Make me linger awhile
Tease my appetite
Quench my thirst
Whisper sweet nothings
That’ll intrigue my loins
Smear your honey
Across my lips
Leave me wanting..
Needing ..
Feigning for more
You’ve caught me
So show me
All you have in store
Make me your puppet
Tug on my strings
Make me do things
That’ll make even the devil cringe.


© Lisa Goycochea

Love Shoudn't Hurt

I remember when we met
Fresh feelings so new
You said, don’t worry baby,
I’m goin take of you

We were so in love
Kissy kissy here
Hugging everywhere
You said baby, if I can help it
You’ll never shed a tear

You said my eyes
Were like a mirror to your soul
You’d never leave me
I’ll always have your shoulder
And your hand to hold

I remember when, you said
You can’t bare another day
Of walking this life
Without me as your wife

I remember when
You got so excited
When the doctor said it was a boy
You promised to be a great dad
Because a father figure you never had

I remember all the good times we had
But then something changed
And at times
Things did seem ALL bad
You didn’t come home anymore
You barely said good bye
When you walked out the door
Got women calling our house
All hours of the night
And when I try to talk to you
You always start an argument
Then don’t come home out of spite

It’s painful
But I’m trying to go over
Everything that happened
Last Tuesday night
We had dinner
You insisted on picking a fight
I tried to agree with you
Just to avoid,
Another sleepless night

I remember telling you
We need some outside help
This abuse has gone on too long
And the first step to healing
Is admitting you are wrong

I even kept saying; If not for me
Then do it for our sons’ sake
And if you are not willing to change
Then we need to take a break

For a second…
I swear…
I saw your eyes go blank
And that’s when you snapped
‘Cause round my throat
Your arms were tightly wrapped

And when your Fist connected my face
I thought I was dead for sure
‘Cause everything went dark
As my blood trickled
And my bleeding body hit the floor

As tears roll from my eyes
I remember
Our son
Screaming in the background
I tried getting away
But it was, my stomach
That your size 11 found

I can remember the day
You said you’d treat me
like “I was your Queen”
Well here I lay
Beaten and bruised
The doctor said
I’m lucky to be alive
You’ve even ruptured my spleen

Laying here in this hospital bed
Has given me much time to think
Where we went wrong?
What I did or didn’t do?
To make you so angry
That you’d beat me lifeless
Leaving me black and blue

My heart is broken
And I just want to scream
I keep thinking
Any minute now,
I’ll wake up from this dream

My body is tattered
And my spirit is crushed
My memories are tarnished
The uncertainty of “He loves me”
Or “He loves me not”
Speaks louder
Every time I hear the beep
From the oxygen machine

This is my wake up call
Love Shouldn’t Hurt
No matter how great or small
So through these bandages
I can finally see
I’m not alone
And I’m still alive
Because a higher power
Was always watching over me


© Lisa Goycochea






*SPEAK UP, STOP THE CYCLE

For more information or to get help, please call:
National Domestic Violence Hotline 1800-799-7233

Note: Did you know
1 in every 4 women will experience domestic violence in her lifetime.
An estimated 1.3 million women fall victim to physical assault by an intimate partner each year.
85% of domestic violence victims are women.
And Most cases of domestic violence are never reported to the police.
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