After all this time

 

 

Never thought I would

Never thought I could

But now I have

And it feels good  

We met at a crossroad

But your choices I couldn’t bear

So I took my own path

Even though nothing seemed clear  

Felt like an eternity letting go

Strength is what I lacked

So afraid of the path I chose

Fear kept me looking back  

But after all this time

Never thought I'ld be here

My conscience is clear

My heart is open 

After all this time

I can pass you by

Without a tear

Or hurt inside

I've healed my pride

Lost a love

And gained
A friend.

 

  © Lisa Goycochea

Live Out Loud

 

Been here before, seen it all
Thrown pain, resentment, forgiveness
Now much needed caution to the wind
Not afraid to let go
Or completely give in
Not afraid to accept
Nor afraid to reach in
Still confused by this emotion
You want
Then you don’t
You love
Then you won’t
The feelings
Some are afraid to face
Too many moons past
With time callously misplaced
And the only thing I have to show
Are the lines left on my face
This is my now
This is my when
Stepping outside the lines
Shunning the past
Embracing the future
I’ve settled for less
Now I’m ready for more
Living and breathing
In this moment
For when my time has come
I can lift my eyes and say
Don’t cry for me
Treasure my memories always
This was my life
I’ve lived it my way
With no regrets
Only how, I saw best.

 

Brown Skin

 

Skin like garden silk

Hair glistens like gold under the sunlit sky

Eyes hold the steps to the soul

Lips like  butter

you just want to lather all over

Arms and Legs stretched tall

Admiring

From start to where they end

Brown skin

You’re sexy as hell

 

 

© Lisa Goycochea

Just a Kid

 

I'm just a little kid
and my Daddy thinks I'm fine.
He say's I never cause him problems,
but my Mama say's he's blind.

I have to eat at the table.
I can't eat and watch T.V.
She makes me say 'Yes not Yeah',
Thank you and Please."
Dad say's there's lots of time
for me to learn these things and
he never does get mad when
I track mud in all the rooms.

He say's I'm just a kid
and I meant no harm
when I wrote on the walls and
dumped my toys in the yard.
Mom made me pick them up and
even made me clean the walls.

I think Dad is right and
I shouldn't work so hard.
Mom makes me clean my room
and pick up all my toys.

My Dad hates to see me spanked,
but my Mom sure don't mind.
She says it's good for me,
it will teach me wrong from right.

My Mom and Dad are friends.
They don't fight or anything.
The only time they disagree
is on what they think is good for me.

      Lisa Goycochea

                                                                                       

Forces

 

Like two forces in the universe
Destined to meet
You blew into my life
Knocked me off my feet
Conformed my direction
To meet your path
And wormed your way into my heart
You have become the stone
On which I sharpen my tongue
The door on which my troubles are hung
The voice that makes my smile comes alive
Restoring my emotions
Provided me a shoulder to cry
You are the rhythm that drums in my heart
The one from which I don’t want to part
There is one truth my lips may hide
But through layers of masking
My heart can’t deny
What it is I’ve hidden behind my smile
Truth is, I’ve always loved you
And managed to hide it, all this time
 

© Lisa Goycochea

Close to You (Random Thought)

 

For everything that you have given me

Ill take an eternity to give it all back to you

And if that’s what it takes to be close 

Then an eternity will just have to do

 

© Lisa Goycochea

Where the leaves Fall

Standing in the midst
Surrounded by your light
Tickled by your beauty
Twirling and Smiling
I can’t wait to feel you
Closing my eyes
I sense you
I breathe you, like no other
Intoxicated by the shades
You gently kiss my face
Caress my skin
So captivated by your beauty
I get lost within the breath of you
Arms outstretched
Playfully, I embrace you
Like you never left
With laughter
I welcome you back
My dearest Fall
Oh how I’ve missed you!

  

© Lisa Goycochea

 

The Darkest Light

Inspired by Michael Buble’ “Lost”

 

 

~Like a shooting star

So full of love and a lust for life

I’ve watched you from afar

But lately you’ve been so consumed

I barely recognize who you are

 

I feel you ache

And slowly it tears me apart

But you are not alone

I’ve been here from the start

Like a shadow, I’ve watched you grow

Carried your spirit, sheltered your heart 

 

You sit in that dark place

With those tears upon your face 

Barely breathing,

Hoping to disappear without a trace

Each day trying to be strong

Swallowing your words

Just to get along

Days drag on

Nights sustained alone

This place you’ve settled in

Is making your heart cold as stone

The simple sentiments

Are but a breathless eco

Which makes you question

What you already know

 

This love you once knew

Has become so strange

Making yourself crazy

Wondering what has changed

Trying to control your emotions

That you’ve locked deep within 

As anger consumes

Your patience grows thin

Feeling you can’t win

So you’re slowly giving in 

 

The signs have always been there

Now the writings’ become clear

Everything’s moving so fast

Slipping from your grasp

But don’t be sad

Just like everything else

This, too shall pass

 

I know things don’t seem so right

The once bright future

Suddenly doesn’t look too bright

But you are not alone,

I’m here for you

I won’t let you give up

Without putting up a fight

 

Ill be your shoulder

Your annoying conscience

And your guide

And when you need me

I’ll be here, right by your side

 

© Lisa Goycochea

Frozen in Time

Honestly, lying

Surrounded yet alone
Once a healthy heartbeat
Now lay faint behind the stone
Like a fairytale
The slipper always fit
Found by the prince  
But still so lost
Enchanted by darkness
Heavily guarded by doubt
Thoughts frozen in once upon a time
Always a different chapter
Telling the same story
Somehow the in-between’s always a blur
But it always end in the same
A cliché tale with no real fairytale end

© Lisa Goycochea

Sustenance

I want to love you

Without warrant
Without fear
Without discernment
Without worry
Without intervals

My heart is open

Ready to be filled with the beauty of you.
My mind,
Overflowing with thoughts of you
and only you.
My body has been branded
By you,
and Like a Fein, it craves the warmth of you

I think of life ever after

and It  illuminates my soul
Because you’re the one
The only one, my hearts wants to have and to hold
I want you to want me,  the way I want you
Love me like I’m the only one made for you
Meant for you
Like water to earth,
The only one who quenches you
Like the morning sun
The only love that can
Nourish you ‘
Sustain or break you

Breathe me, Like I’m your last wish

That tantalizing aroma
…. bouncing off your favorite dish

Breathe me

Till you can hear me
Taste me
Feel me, through the heartbeats
Echoing from your chest
Breathe me,   
Like I’m the oxygen to your brain
The soother to your pain
And most of all
The only love that’ll keep you sane

Just Breathe

breathe ME …

 

© Lisa Goycochea