Clean Hands

 The words that aren’t spoken

Tends to hurt the most
Diminishing the one thing
We’ve been holding so close
Can’t help but wonder; Why me,
In the present, its so hard to be seen

But next time you want to judge

Who and Where I’ve been

Before you point that finger,

Make sure your hands are clean

 

© Lisa Goycochea

To Love or Something Like it

 

Everyone wants the perfect relationship, but too often we compromise the Wait for the right person for the Need to have someone around.

No one wants to be lonely, so desperately people compromise their feelings, strong beliefs on how they think love should be, based upon surface values and not what they really feel. It seems everyone’s afraid to dig deep to see the other person, not just the fantasy that’s created but to really see the other person.

It’s easy to create a perfect relationship in the back of your mind, but what happens when things don’t go as planned? …the blind eye is turned, the famous “doubting the instincts” comes into play, then the excuses are made ~he/she can change, the relationship is too new to bring up the issues or make demands, or I can’t do better than what I have right now, so I’ll stick it out until something better comes along.

Why do women do that?

Are we that desperate to be loved that we would take anything that’s utters the word “love.”

Too often I hear women say; “we’re having problems in our marriage, so we’re gonna have a baby”
When did, having a baby dissolves marital problems?
Trust me sooner or later, the same issues before baby ~will only be worse after baby.
When did Trading the Wait for the right person with the right qualities become “the right now and for all the wrong reasons?”

*He’s good to me but not marriage material

*He cheats but he can change
*Our sex life is good, but we have no open communicate between us
*Yes he’s good in the bedroom but he’s completely useless outside the bedroom
*He completely lacks what you need in the bedroom but treats you like a queen outside of the bedroom
*He’s built like Fabio or a Greek God but he makes you feel like the ground he’s walking on
*Or the Famous …he’s quiet or too reserved but I need a Bad boy to rough me up now and then.
** The list of excuses goes on and on….

But what do you do then?

Can you be honest with yourself & the other party & be ok with the thought of being alone?

Or play the role of the doting girl “staying in a relationship, that’s not working” for the sake of not being alone?
Being single is not as crippling as everyone thinks, yes you have days that you get lonely
And some days are so perfect; it completely reminds you, why you chose to be single in the first place.

I refuse to want something that only looks like love for the time being, or something I can tolerate for the sake of being in a relationship

In a healthy relationship:
Your other half should be able to lift you up when you can’t seem to lift yourself up
You’re too weary to pray, he’ll pray with you or for you
Even on your worst day, he can look you in the eyes and say “you’re beautiful”
Not only sees you, but knows your heart
You can say you are OK to no end and he’ll still hold you close because he knows you are lying thru your teeth

Your fight is his fight

Encourages you to be yourself and not what he sees out in the world
Loves you for who you are and not who he thinks you should be.
Should be able to talk about everything or nothing and still be comfortable in the silence of our nothingness
And everything, should be vise versa

Love shouldn’t have to be such a compromise that 50% of the time you are unhappy with the other person.
If that’s the case, then what’s the point?

So is being Single all that bad?

I don’t think so! God has put me in a place where I see first hand, how short life can be, and its’ made me realize that “Treasuring Everyday like it’s a Gift” has become my motto. I cherish my heart and the people I give it to, and I’ve come to the conclusion that Life is too short to be in the wrong relationship or something ….like a good relationship.

 

I love you, yes I do

I love you, yes I do
I’ve asked myself over and over
How can this be true?
The one thing I wasn’t looking for
Has found me
And baby, that’s YOU!

I love you, yes I do
I can’t hide it anymore
These feeling are overwhelmingly true!
Your caring demeanor
Has touched my heart
From your arms, my love
I never want to part
I look at you and get lost in your smile
As your eyes tell me; baby, please stay awhile

I love you, yes I do
My arms are wide open
My emotions are sure
I’ve seen your heart
And it all seems so pure
This cosmic emotion
I’ve bottled inside
From you, I shall no longer hide

So Here I am
Here I stand
Half-court
One on One
No tactics
No defense
No guard
Now the ball is in your court
And my hearts in your hands

Wait
Before you make a move
Just wanted to say
I’ve never taken loosing
Laying down any day.
Game over or not
No matter the play
Baby, I’ve already fallen
So tomorrow, Ill still love you anyway


 

YOU

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

If I had to think of only one person that makes me smile the most

It would be you
If I had to think of only one person that I can tell all my secret to
Those secrets would definitely go to you
If I had to think of only one person that gets me, in more than a few ways
It would be you
If I had to think of only one person that I could completely give my heart to
I’d say that would be you
If I had to think of only one person I can be myself with
I’d say that person would be you
If I could think of one person
I would want to spend the rest of my life with
I’d want to spend it with you

© Lisa Goycochea

The Plan

 

 

 

I promised myself
I’d never fall
So around my heart
I’ve built a wall
I’ve convinced myself
Love will never find me again
But destiny knew better
Just a matter of how and when

That night you asked me on a date
To me it was just another night
Getting to know a friend
Chilling, sharing a plate
In my head I went over the rules
Telling myself to play it cool
If it seems too good
Leave reason for doubt
Be a good girl and no staying out
If sex was the question – always wait
And no kissing until at least the 2nd date

My rules were simple
I had a good plan
Dinner and a Movie
And a few winning hands
But then you kissed me
And everything went black
Nervously I pulled back
Trying to grasp the composure, my emotions lack

Your persistence I admire
Dauntingly your eyes showed desire
I started thinking I should call It a night
But my limbs were too weak to put up a fight
You kissed me again and I slowly gave in
Right then …
I cared less who you were
Or where you’ve been
I kept thinking
We can write our destiny
Chapter One…
This is where, our story begins

Meeting you was fate
But falling in Love
Was never in the plan
For while emotionally
I was trying to sneak out
My untamed heart
Somehow snuck you in


Lisa Goycochea

Squeeze (So Random)

Feeling your arms around me
seems like heaven

Silently I’ll smile,
playfully coaxing you like a child
Pushing back further,
persuading you to squeeze tighter
Feels like a familiar place;
that I once knew

 

 

© Lisa Goycochea

Treasuring Your Memory

Sadness becomes you
Leaving you in disbelief
Offering you darkness
And a blanket of grief

Over and Over
We questioned; “why?”
Why were you chosen?
Why did you, have to die?

Our hearts are broken
And too shattered to understand
That what it is, we hoped for you
Wasn’t part of Gods Plan

He shouldered your burdens
He saw your heart
He knew what ailed you
And decided;
You need a new start

So with sadness in the air
And tears in our eyes
We’ll gather together
To celebrate you
And say our final goodbyes

We’ll treasure your memories
And hold thoughts of you, dear
And carry you in our hearts
Through out the coming years.


© ~Lisa Goycohea
3/18/11

Reflecting: 2010 My year in Review

Reflecting:
2010 My year in Review


2010 almost over
And I’ve done more this year by myself
than I’ve accoplished in a few years
All because I stopped worrying about
What, when & how everyone else think I should be
I let go of the Fear
Of asking
Of doing
Of trying
Of failing
And of wanting more for myself without the guilt

I’ve made peace with the devil
And walked away with a light conscience
I’ve made a lot of friends, and didn’t loose any
I stepped outside the box and loved it
I dated a few and walked away when I needed to
My left hand was asked for twice
I said No and I have no regrets
I’ve done a lot of things, with no regrets
I’ve said a lot of things, with no regrets.

I’ve treasured everyday
Every moment,
treating it like a borrowed gift
I’ve let go of words like:
“I would BUT..”
“I cant”
And “I shouldn’t because”
Instead I made myself the epitomy of the quote:
I came, I saw and I conquered

I hit the books and got what I wanted
Just to prove to myself I could.
I loved harder, I smiled brighter, I forgave faster
I’ve had minor ups and downs
But I only took them as making me stronger, wiser and better.

I’ve given more and asked for nothing in return
I’ve litterally dance like noones watching
I’ve eaten everything I wanted
Just made better choices
So I don’t look like, what I eat

I’ve watched my daughter grow
Into an amazing, talented, smart, mouthy 5 year old
That I wouldn’t trade for anything in this world
I watch her sleep and wonder, how did I get so lucky.

I’ve made peace with God
And in return he’s accepted me, like I never left
I still cry when I pray because I know,
Even though I deserve so little
I’ve been blessed with so much
And no amount of paying it forward or giving back
Can ever sum up my gratitude for such blessings

This year has been another wonderful journey
And I can only hope to make it even better in 2011
So from my Family to yours, We’re wishing everyone
A safe & wonderful Holiday Season & Many more Blessings
Throughout the New Year


Peace & Love
Lisa Goycochea

*So you wanna be the wocket in pocket?

*So you wanna be the wocket in pocket?
A trinket that hangs off my body
Like a heirloom locket
The constant buzz in my head
The only other thing that gets me off in bed
Just the sound of your name
Makes my heart beat faster
And across my face,
That naughty smile I’ll plaster

*So you wanna be the wocket in pocket?
My alarm that chimes in the morning
And the chamomile that soothes me at night
My sweet yet satisfying addiction
Doesn’t matter; necessity or greed
I’ll keep you up
‘Cause you’ve got what I need

*So you wanna be the wocket in my pocket?
It’s a hard role to play
I can be the devil
I can be an angel too
These are the challenges
Just to name a few
Sinful days
Long nights
And servicing me without pay
Requirements: Physically fit
Able to handle me
And keep me lit
I’m tough but fair
I have to admit
The benefits are reasonable
But only if you commit

*Still wanna be the wocket in my pocket?
Heed this sirens advice:
If you’ve applied
Avoid the humiliating price
And hold onto your pride.
I have needs..
And I hate to feel deprived
If you can’t put in the work
Then application DENIED

So unless you’re the Energizer
I know you’d never survive
Cause my thirst alone
...Will devour you ALIVE.


© Lisa Goycochea 12/13/10

Sex and the City

Sex and the City: The Four Women, the Four Elements
Your results are based on the four Elements of Astrology: Fire, Earth, Air and Water. Each Element has its own set of characteristics, and each of us displays some combination thereof, usually with a focus on one or two. Samantha, Miranda, Carrie and Charlotte each personify one of the Elements and its basic traits. Which Elements most strongly influence you?



Note: Scores are rounded to one decimal place and therefore may not total 100%


You scored 50% Carrie
Your answers peg you as a Carrie-type, much influenced by the Air Sign qualities associated with Gemini, Libra and Aquarius. Like confident Carrie, a sex columnist, you're curious and perceptive, always seeking answers and never satisfied with the superficial. An Air Sign influence can lead to indecision and an avoidance of tough issues, like with Carrie and her on-again, off-again attachment to Mr. Big. Forward-thinking, incredibly intelligent and witty, you just exude quirky charm. You'd be utterly bored by someone who's just a pretty face or hot body -- though you don't mind looking and flirting! You're more turned on by an equally smart and funny mate, someone who challenges your mind and makes you laugh. You love to talk, so you need a good listener who's open to playful and eccentric ideas about love and lovemaking.


You scored 20% Samantha
You identify with Samantha's bold and liberated Fire Sign qualities, characteristics associated with the Signs of Aries, Leo and Sagittarius. You're strong, audacious and larger than life -- and you take what you want! Sometimes you can even be thoughtless and selfish, as you get so caught up in craving immediate gratification and excitement that you overlook someone's feelings. Your personal style likely reflects your desires: sleek, low-cut, revealing just a bit more than might be considered acceptable. Watch that you're not coming on too strong, though. You could scare potential suitors off with all your drama. If you seek so much attention, the more basic qualities of the Fire Signs could be burned right out of the picture. Show less skin or cleavage and more of your creativity, your vibrant leadership skills and courageous generosity!


You scored 20% Charlotte
A romantic at heart, you chose the answers that demure Charlotte may have chosen. Strongly influenced by the intuitive, profound and sometimes naïve Water Signs -- Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces -- you're like a mother, a mystery and a poet all in one. Though on the surface you may seem innocent and all about seeking the good in people, beneath the surface, you hide secret yearnings for intimacy, for attachment and ideal love. You're seeking a knight in shining armor, a soul mate, someone who will complete you and tether you to the earth when you get carried away with your fantasies. You're super-sensitive, soaking up the moods of others; you emote freely, crying at commercials and sappy movies. You also provide a shoulder to cry on and open arms for hugs. Be careful that you're not so wide-eyed and trusting that you get taken in by some cunning wolf in sheep's clothing.


You scored 10% Miranda
You chose many of the same answers that Earth Sign-like Miranda, the cynical but pragmatic lawyer, might have chosen. Just like Miranda's had a tough time deciding whether to give in to the affections of Steve the Bartender, you don't give your heart up to just anyone. Miranda shies away from a relationship with Steve because he's 'just' a bartender, not something more conventionally ambitious or stable. Those with powerful Earth Sign qualities -- characteristics associated with Taurus, Virgo and Capricorn -- are cautious in love and seek stability and status over nearly anything else. Earth Signs provide a steady, realistic attitude and they can bring order out of chaos. A little-known Earth Sign fact: Incredibly sensual, you seethe beneath that smart, expensive business suit of yours, yearning for intimacy but hesitant to give up your material needs, your career ambitions or your responsibilities for a passionate moment that might not turn out the way you'd hope